im not even sad

Depression feels different to different people. The fact is that you are not "happy," do not feel fulfilled. For me it sometimes feels better to feel apathy than to let the sadness take hold. In the last few years I've really learned that my depression is a lot more complicated than sadness alone.

I feel these emotions almost 24/7 :/

Sometimes to some people, that is exactly what depression is. Drowning, in nothing. almost feeling numb, not happy..not sad either. Just lacking in feeling/emotion.

same