id recommend you never read this

Other people, online or in videos, always seem to say their life improved after a suicide attempt. They found reasons to live or saw their life wasn't as bad as they thought. So wouldn't that mean if I try to kill myself things would get better? I'm no idiot, I can easily find a way that would make my body think it's going to die but that ultimately won't kill me. Hell, I've thought of at least 4 typing this. Of course, nothing else I've tried that helps other people help me, and most of my problems won't change if I did make an attempt. But still, you can't argue with results, and time and time again I people saying how their lives turned around after attempting suicide.