Will I ever get better?

Ive struggled with mental health problems for around six or seven years now. Its exhausting. I dont know how to explain it, but I just feel incredibly demotivated and dissatisfied with life. I really want to enjoy life, and to do fun things and feel like doing things, but Im just lacking the ability to feel that joy. Its been that way for so long now, that I cant really remember what it was like to not feel so numb. I feel so different from everyone else, I feel like Im boring and that people never want to spend time with me. No one, besides maybe three people, really texts me or makes plans. I feel lonely, I feel isolated because of my mental illness. Im wondering whether this will ever stop. Its been so long now that Im wondering if it will ever get easier. I feel like people dont understand how I feel, and if I bring it up it will just worry them or make them like me even less. I just dont know what to do anymore, and Im really trying. Im going to therapy again, so Im hoping that helps, but if it doesnt then I dont know what to do.

I just wanted to tell someone this, I dont know who to talk to. No one would understand how empty I just feel all the time. I feel like maybe Im too far gone to be able to help myself.

this was a bit of a rant. Thanks for listening.