Why am I so alone?
I don't know what's wrong with me. I seem to be so forgettable to everyone... I don't talk to anyone from high school, even though we just graduated. Nobody ever wants to hang out. Nobody cares. I try to organize things and I get nothing and it's so frustrating.
I feel like people only use me. I only have one person that I can truly consider a friend, and she doesn't even live in the same state as me. I feel so alone. I don't have anybody and nobody would bat an eye if I were to disappear, which is basically what happened. None of my "friends" have heard from me in months because I'm just... so sick of feeling disposable.
They talk behind my back. I know it. I've HEARD it. I can't keep anyone around.
I don't know what I'm doing wrong. It has been this way for years. I frequently remember that I don't have any friends in real life. I'm forgettable and disposable because I don't stand out, but I don't know how to. It really gets to me.
My own family doesn't even care. Of course, they'd be sad if something bad happened to me but... beyond that. Nothing. They don't care about who I am. Or what I like. Nobody seems to have any interest in me besides this one friend. I have nobody. It hurts and I try to brush it off, but humans naturally crave social interaction.
What's wrong with me? It has to be something that I'M doing wrong. It's the only way for this all to make sense.
Hi @Sleebo, do you hesitate to get involved with the activities of your freinds and family. Do you isolate? Maybe they just think your busy, or you arent intetested. In order to get involved maybe you should make yourself more available and speak up. Communication is soooo important. You are worthy and important and we all need to feel a part of something. Push yourself to get more involved and remember what you think or say is very important. Plus be sure to be intetested in what others have to say; thats where we pickup wisdom and learn to see other peoples perspectives.
How we percieve things can be changed as we learn more aspects of lives many twists and turns.
People talk about everything out of interest, it is something most people are guilty of but it shouldnt bother you. If you let it bother you you will be visiblly upset which will trigger more talk behind your back. But if you dont let it bother you, and except it as normal curiosity bantering, it disapears as quickly as it started. Be nice and bring up something in the news or start talking about something your passionate about and those good energies are contagious; great conversations or ease their discomfort and watch the magic happen. Once they see your a nice person, the can relax and you can all be calm and enjoy eachothets company. Its human nature to talk about others, it happens a lot. It wont mean a thing unless you make it a thing. When you understand all people have flaws, you can give them a pass, and you can get involved. We must allow ourselves to be vulberable or people will sence our shields are up, and they will talk to try to figure out why. The very moment you let it go for real, so will they. Go enjoy eachother. Get closer to people and your quickly see im right about this. Your learni g just like we all must. Trust me, it will be great once you trust yourself, and trust that most people will welcome you when you show up unarmed.
I gotchu.
Hi @Sleebo,
I'm really sorry you're feeling like this. It sounds incredibly tough and lonely. It must be so frustrating to feel like no one truly cares, even when you try so hard to connect. You're not alone in feeling this way, and it's definitely not something you're doing wrong. Sometimes, people just get wrapped up in their own lives and forget to reach out, even though they do care.
It's great that you have one friend who really understands you, even if they’re far away. Having even one genuine connection is valuable. You're not disposable or forgettable—you're unique and you have your own worth.
Have you thought about joining any groups or communities that share your interests? Finding people with similar passions can sometimes lead to more meaningful connections. And remember, it's okay to feel hurt and disappointed; your feelings are valid.
Take care of yourself and keep reaching out. You're not alone in this.