Well today sucks
Just a foreward, i have bpd, depression and anxiety. In the last four months it's gotten worse.. Anyway
I was fired today. My hours had already been reduced because of my attitude /health/ work quality and today my boss decided to sack me. After telling me that it was all ok.
Now bear in mind guys, I have been circling the drain for some time. In the last few months I started self harming (I'm 30 and this is the first time I have ever done that) my depressive episodes getting worse and thoughts of suicide getting more and more frequent. I have sought help. I had a consultation with the mental health unit a few days ago and looking to start treatment courses soon.
This today is starting to tip me over. Don't get me wrong, I have wanted to leave that job for months now. The stress was getting to me and making my moods much worse. But it's just the way it happened. I have been in tears all day, calling my friends for support and they have been so helpful. But this has put me in a depressed state. I feel lonely and isolated and I just need to be able to talk to someone.
I don't want to sound overdramatic with this post. I just think I need talking and so many hugs..