Useless,worthless,mad.....
That moment when you see there's no hope for you....I'm done calling the hotlines they told me to hold on,never pick up the phone again, webpages? not so helpful, but im glad im honest with me, at least.....i tried to find help, some people help a little but i don't know... but sometimes you know theres no other way out and that it's over..
You are not alone. I used to feel like that about a year ago. For me personally, I startedon medication (which I didn't believe in and thought was just a cop out, or a hoax from society to make money). I never thought I'd say that medication turned my life around, but it did. It didn't fix everything but it helped enough for me to take on the rest.
That's an option if you have insurance or can get help from family and friends. Regardless, try to get help from someone your close to and/or trust. Also seek out listeners here and there are many that know what you're going through and want to help. I'm new to this site and am not a listener but I can relate.
There is always hope. Something I'm trying myself (which is difficult) is choosing to be happy and look for joy in simple things. Keep busy with a hobby. Actively talk to a listener or multiple for a while. Just don't give up.