The Feeling and Hiding
So I've never really got into posting on help websites or forums in general so I just wanted to post something and try it out. For me when I wake up I get this feeling of fear or dread that the day will be negative in someway and this happens most days for me. Most days I look back on my life and judge myself pretty harshly like saying I'm a failure and asking myself questions like "what if I done this differently in my life?" or "what will my future hold for me?" I want to reach out to the people close to me but my mind puts up a "wall" or "mask" so to everyone I seem fine and happy but I'm really feeling sad and lonely, its probably something I developed so that I wouldn't bother the people around me. At the moment I'm trying to work on myself and trying to overcome the negativity side of my mind but it seems such a struggle most of the time.
@JoshuaB412
I could relate to your post and your situation. There was this phase in my life where I felt the same. I use to get up in the morning with a dread feeling. I too have this habit of doubting myself even though I know I have given my best in the given situation.
We all need someone to listen to us , we need one or two people in your life with whom we can talk about anything without fear of judgement.
May be what I did will help ,
I use to do my affirmations first thing in the morning . I use to push myself into doing that , keeping a book near my bed and reading them each morning. I always maintain a journal and write anything that comes to my mind …never thinking what I am writing …all doubts ..fears… apprehensions…anything ..good or bad …I meditate everyday. I Practice self love and self care, and I have made myself , my health and my well being a top priority in my life. If we cannot love ourselves unconditionally who else will.
All this has helped me in getting out of that difficult phase in life.
All conditions positive or negative are temporary
And believe me ..
This too shall pass
Good luck ! lots of love
