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I hate everything about myself from the way I act, to the way I speak even though at the start I begain acting like that to please people. When I go back to school I just want to try act how I usually do without trying to please people but I don't want to loose my friends. Without my friends I am nothing but the way I act now cause lots and lots of people to hate me and I just want to be loved by someone.
If they're real friends, they won't leave you, because you're being yourself. If they stop beimg your friends, others will. You'll never be "nothing". Wanting to be yourself is great and I'm proud of you. Being yourself and happy with who you want to be, will attract others and eventually there will be someone who loves you the way you want.
