Struggling with Self-harm

Relapsing sucks but it's normal, it happens. Recovery is a process and you're right to be proud of it, no matter if you have a few hiccups along the way or if it's smooth sailing all the way through. Sometimes the hiccups feel like they are the process and that's where you can go down the path of thinking that this is forever. It takes time but in no way is it forever. You might want to create a habit by repeating another defence mechanism instead, whether it be writing, exercising, meditating, reflection or anything else. I know it's not the same. But these mechanisms are healthy and they push you a little closer to a life where fighting this no longer takes much of your energy. If you give up, this will take up a great portion of your mental resources, leaving you exhausted. You're going to be okay and you can do this. Best wishes! - Ele

I hope that things get better.

@a1dot oh dear, relapse sure sucks a lot. not that only it's difficult and suffocating, it makes you feel of how you have destroyed all of the process that you have worked so hard on. here's a good news: you're not ruining anything at all. five months, that's so, so great and i'm proud of you. let's say you are building a bridge; if there is something wrong in the middle of your construction, you're not demolishing the whole bridge. it's ok to relapse. it's not a sign that you're weak. you can fall down, but you can get up too. bear it, fight it, you can do this.