So down and depressed ðŸ˜
Hi everyone am new to this never wrote anything before but ere gos my life at the minute as completely fell apart I've been unwell for most of my adult life with mental health issues I've been on medication for a long time but noting just seems to work I can never get myself out this black hole somedays weeks are harder some not so bad but I've literally had enough of feeling and being this way. I recently found out that my partner now ex was having affair for the best part of 18 months and the woman has had a baby to him I found this out 2 months ago my world has literally been ripped in half I do have a child to this man who's only 2 so still very young I've had no contact with him since I found out he's in jail due to a matter with this new woman he wasn't a very nice person to me when we was together with being physically and emotionally abusive the relationship had completely broke down but my understanding is it only got that way when he meet this new woman. Ino it takes two for a relationship to work and it takes to two tango I did use to give as good as i hot but that's when me mental health suffered the most I would cry morning to night day in day out he moved to another part of the country to be with this other woman but was still on contact with me everyday telling me how much he loved me how much I meant to him how much he wanted to start again it stayed this way until I found out about the new lady and her baby I cut contact I don't use social media my health suffers with it but my family have social media and showed me pictures of the girl and her involvement with his family all playing happy families it's broke my heart the other woman knew about me all along I just seem to be getting worse as times goes on I still think of him every single day as soon as I wake up till I go to bed at night he's in my thoughts I still love him I still want to ask tbe questions why when all the other things that's going though my head I really thought he loved me am just struggling really bad it's breaking my heart ðŸ˜
@Grme18
I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'll be honest, the heartbreak could stay with you for a long time. I would recommend talking to someone about it. You may find someone new who will heal you. If you do talk to someone, don't refer to your husband by his name. Names build attachment. Call him "you-know-who," maybe. If you stop referring to him by his name, you will get over him faster.