Sick of trying

I'm getting to the point that I'm just sick and tired of everything going wrong. I keep sucking it up and taking a step forward, but when I do something else happens and sets me back. I just cant get a grip anymore. Everything is falling apart around me and I cant keep pretending it will be ok. I fix something, something else breaks, I take a step in recovering my relationship something sets us back again. I cant even feel "normal" day to day anymore. It's just always a new hurdle every time I turn around. I can't get my footing anymore and I'm getting tired of trying. I'm ready to just give up and let everything crash down around me.