Pattern

I am new to this community.

I came here tonight because I feel isolated. Right now I am going through a rough period but in truth I realize I never went past my last rough period, nor the one before. For several years now, there has been a specific pattern in my life. Things don't go well, things reach a dead end. I am depressed and hopeless for a while but I manage to get up and I make big changes in my life. For a couple of months there is excitement and hope. However, soon enough, I end up in the same situation and it's depression all over again. Currently I am dealing with a job that I hate, an evil and toxic environment. I have relocated several times and now I find myself alone in a city that I don't like that much and far away from my family. On top of this, I developed chronic migraine and I live in constant pain. I am taking care of all these aspects the best way that I can: I have a therapist and a neurologist. But sadly enough, not may people to talk to. So this is what brought me here tonight.

Hello everyone.