Parenting
i don't know if there are other parents like me out here, but one of the worst feelings in the world is not wanting to be around your kids. so depressed that you cant wait for bedtime. i love them with every bit of my heart and soul, but when i get to a dark place i just cant face them. it's so painful.
@Emichelle Parenting is the most difficult job there is and you obviously want to do your best for your cherished children. You obviously love them very much. It sounds like your tank might be on empty right now, which happens when your energy becomes depleted. Lack of sleep and rest are major contributing factors to stress, depression and chronic illness. Take care of yourself, be easy on yourself, and as you may have heard before, put your own mask on before you help others.
@Emichelle You are doing the best that you can. We aren't perfect parents, and we could not be no matter how we might try. Have you enjoyed any activities with your children in the past? Do you think that a brief daily connection would be possible for you? Give yourself grace. These hard days will pass in time. Children are resilient. And if they are aware of your struggle, they might gain strength in observing your recovery process. Best of luck to you. Hoping that you are able to make some progress. And remember, this is not your fault.
@Emichelle
Hey there @Emichelle ! Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts on this. Depression can be so rough and being a parent can sometime make that even harder. I'm a mother to two beautiful children and I understand this difficulty. ❤️ you are not alone.