Pain

I'm sure it's hard for people to imagine that sinus pain from allergies can be bad enough to cause depression but mine does. It's so fucking painful right now I feel like if I were to just let go I would have some kind of anxiety attack. I have to focus and remain calm. A general apathy is most effective. Nothing helps. I've tried all the nasal sprays and pills. What I feel like I really need is pain medication, but nobody prescribes powerful pain meds for sinus pain and I wouldn't take them anyway because I know I'd get addicted. Alcohol is the only thing that helps. It numbs the pain. But until I drink at least two beers I will have to endure this pain. Not to mention the fact that it ruins my cognitive ability and makes me want to be a hermit. Shit this sucks. Sorry, just needed to vent. I don't expect any responses.