Overwhelmed with everything.. :(

I don't really know what to do anymore. I feel so alone with my problems and myself and I am really helpless

It's been like this since years and December is always the worst - Although I love winter because it's so cozy with the snow and everything.

I feel like I'm not the person I used to be and I have so much more in me. But self confidence issues and procrastination are slowly destroying me. I always have so much on my mind of what I want achieve, but in the end I will procrastinate and postpone everything. I also feel stupid and compare myself to others.

"I'm not good enough", "Does he like me?", "am I weird? " these questions are constantly on my mind and I just feel so anxious.

I'm really hoping for some advice, insight and maybe some tips to find a good listener.

Thank you all..