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I have been placed on something called the restricted recipient program because my insurance thinks that I visited the ER too many times/unnecessarily during the pandemic. I had like so many months of wheezing and illness and the meds they gave me weren't working. Anyway...I've been sick and wheezing recently and couldn't get in to see my doctor so it was suggested that I go to the urgent care. I went and the xray showed that I have pneumonia. Now I have to wait for my doctor to approve my meds because the urgent care doctor isn't on the list of prescribers. So many hoops to jump through just to get the meds I need to feel better. I'm so frustrated.
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That's neat that your parents were born on the same day on Patty's Day. It's like they were destined to find each other. I had to get the laptop out because there was no reply button or post to the thread button. Sigh...it used to be so easy to read and write to the forum. I don't even post to other threads right now because this is hard enough.
My daughter is hovering over me right now wondering what I'm doing. Today was boring. We got up early for school after 4 days off and after I got her to school and dropped off my timesheet, I took a nap. That's all I did at home. I plan on visiting my mom tomorrow if I can get enough sleep tonight. The weather is going to be good for a couple of days.
i am being called to play games with kiddo now. I hope you're having a nice, relaxing evening.
Sorry for the continued tech challenges. I actually have learned to like the computer better. I can answer everyone who has answered me pretty quickly and then check the top for those who have written recently. It isn't perfect, but I have adapted. It is also bigger than my phone so it is easier on my eyes.
Just getting your daughter off to school today was enough. I hope that you do get to see your mother tomorrow. I will be seeing mine. I made them both a pie for their birthday. I had to go to 7 food stores to find the rhubarb that I wanted. I became a little too obsessed, but I did manage to find it. Hopefully it tastes okay and the visit goes well. @SweetPea321
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Aww, that's really sweet of you to go through the trouble to make the perfect pie for your parents. I bet they enjoyed it. How did your visit go with them? I didn't get to visit my mom today. She's in the ICU. Last night the nursing home called me and said her oxygen was too low so they sent her to the nearest ER. Not in my town. From there they flew her in a plane to Sioux Falls, SD to a different hospital. Right now she has a breathing tube in and is sedated. If she does better tomorrow they might be able to take the tube out. She has blood clots in her lung and trouble with a hiatal hernia pushing on the lung. We'll be visiting her tomorrow. I wish I would've today, but I overslept due to being called at 2am by the nurse. Then I laid there and worried for awhile. I told my aunt who lives in Sioux Falls where she was and the room number and she said she'll be praying for mom. Why not go visit her, I thought. I tried to get another aunt to visit when she was in the ER last because my aunt works in the same town and she didn't visit either. I think that's sad that they didn't visit her.
It sounds like your mom is getting the help that she needs. That is the most important thing right now. You will get a chance to visit soon. Some people are able to handle hospitals better than other people. Your aunts may be too scared and able to say to themselves that if she is sedated that she wouldn't know that they had visited. People put those thoughts in their heads all the time. I am hoping that you are getting a chance to rest. That is going to be important in terms of energy for the next few days.
My visit with my parents has been okay so far. My mom is doing better but my dad seemed pretty off. It kind of goes back and forth as to which one I worry about more. But he did eat more today. My mom has been having trouble on that front. I did have the social worker visit today and she is going to do an assessment on my parents to see what kinds of care might be helpful.
Dealing with aging parents is just hard. @SweetPea321
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I also meant to ask how you were feeling? You mentioned you have had your cycle for so long and I think you said you have a doctor's appointment on Thursday. Is that right?
I think visiting this weekend will be fine. I can understand the need to wait and the general exhaustion. Having all of that happen would be exhausting for anyone.
Each little bit that you get done is worth it. I am glad that you have the therapy appointment on Friday. Hopefully that puts things in perspective a bit for you and allows you some emotional release.
I do have a gynecology appointment tomorrow. Hopefully I will get some answers or have it removed. We will see what they suggest.@SweetPea321
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I had no appointments today so I treated myself to laying in bed and resting. I had a little nap. Tomorrow I have my therapy and tire appointment.
Good luck with your appointment today. I'm hoping you get some help with your health problem.
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I spoke to my mom's nurse and he said they took out the breathing tube and my mom is doing much better. Still not sure how much longer she'll be there.
It is so nice to hear that your mom is doing better and that you got some rest today. That will make tomorrow go more smoothly.
My appointment today went fine. It was basically of the "you don't need to be here" variety. The urologist last week scared me for no real reason. The bleeding is normal even if it lasts over two weeks. My body is just adjusting to the IUD. The headaches are the biggest concern but they will hopefully lessen over time.
I was able to actually get some work done today which made me feel a little better. I had been doing so much for others at the beginning of the week that I was exhausted and way behind on grading and class prep. I am still behind but a little less so. @SweetPea321
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I am sitting in the customer lounge waiting for my new tires. I've been here for almost and hour and a half and there's a woman talking really LOUD on her phone next to me. Apparently she adopted a guinea pig and blah blah blah swearing. Poor guinea pig has to get screamed at 😱 Get me away from this person! 😄 Oh well...
I'm sorry you have to deal with headaches and your body adjusting to the IUD. I hope it will be a quick adjustment for you so you don't have to suffer.
Don't forget to take time to care for yourself too 🤗
I hope that the app gets easier for you too (and that you don't have nightmares about ladies screaming at guinea pigs). It can be really hard when people are so loud. I am still adapting to my parents' hearing loss. The TV is so loud when I go that I can't think straight. My father started it at 6:30 am when I was there.
I go back in a few weeks to the doctor, but I got the sense that the timeline is different for each person. As long as the headaches aren't too bad, I should be fine.
I hope that your therapy appointment also went well.
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My therspy appointment was fine. It felt good to talk.
I guess it didn't occur to me that the lady could be hearing impaired. I should have more patience for others. I think my daughter and mother take all of my patience, and even then, I don't always have for them.
Today we went on the long drive to Sioux Falls to visit mom in the hospital. She's doing better, but looked really rough. She had bruises, some big, all over her delicate skin and her hair was so matted I couldn't even begin to detangle it. I think she'll need a haircut, which she's never had. She has always kept long hair. The nurse said she wouldn't let her comb it.
I certainly wasn't saying that you needed more patience in that situation. I was saying that I wouldn't have any! You do a great job with all that you have on your plate. I would have been just as annoyed at the woman's rudeness. Probably not enough to have the courage to talk to her about it and ask her to be quiet, but I would have been bothered.
I am glad that you got to see your mom. It is not surprising that she is bruised up considering all that she had to go through in the last week or two. Hopefully someone can convince her to get her hair washed and combed. I bet that she would feel a bit better afterwards. Maybe that will be easier once she is out of the hospital.
It has been a bit of a long weekend for me. My husband is away with his mom this weekend. We are still waiting on the results of his colonoscopy which may not be good. The doctor had to remove material for biopsy. It is a bit hard waiting far apart from one another. He will hopefully know something on Monday. @SweetPea321
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Oh sorry, Vase. misunderstood. Patience is a good lesson though.
I hope your husband and my Dad are ok. My Dad had a biopsy too.
I just wanted you to continue to know how awesome you are.
We will both survive the waiting. @SweetPea321
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Thanks Vase 🤗 I think you're awesome too. I needed that today. I just lost my car that I put $2600 in repairs and new tires on. NOW they tell me that it's unsafe to drive. The subframe is rusted and the engine and transmission could fall out. I had to beg them to let me drive it home. I don't even know how to feel right now. I called my Dad and he said he has to think about it and will call me later.
I am so, so sorry that happened. I can understand why you are nervous. I would be too. Take it a step at a time in terms of finding something better. Starting to look for possibilities slowly but surely may help you feel more in control. Solutions may not appear tomorrow, but they will appear.
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Today has been a day of mixed fortunes. I was able to get a new car through financing. I sure hope I can keep that up. Kind of nervous, but I gotta try. I was so excited to tell my Dad that I forgot today was the day he got his biopsy results. More cancer they found. The doctor also wants to do an mri of his brain to see if it spread there. And then there's my mother. The nursing home called me to tell me that she got back to the nursing home after being in the hospital. My mom is going on hospice and they'll be coming to the nursing home to care for her. My mom refuses the blood thinner med and the water pill and others amd her lungs aren't very good. She actually told me that she didn't think mom would be around much longer. Vase, I'm so sad for my parents. I'm crying as I type this. I can't imagine life without them. I'm scared.
I am so sorry all of that is happening in just one day. I am sad for your parents too. Losing one or both of them will be hard. You deserve some time to grieve for your mom right now. The car may make it easier to go and see her.
The song is lovely.
Let me know of anything that I can do to help you process. @SweetPea321
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Just writing to me helps. Thank you, Vase. I didn't respond last night because we didn't get home until a little after 9pm. My cousin called and said he and his wife were going to visit my mom so we all went after they got off of work. It was a really nice visit. My cousin was talking about old times to my mom and she remembered what he was talking about. I had visited mom earlier in the day and brought her some fudge, snacks and her favorite perfume. Then I played music from my phone for her. Her favorite songs. My eyes started watering because I was sad to see my mom look so frail and bruises everywhere. I told her I needed eye drops so she wouldn't think I was crying.
Today I had a meeting with a case manager for my daughter. She is going on a waiver for disabled people that is going to allow me to continue being a paid parent. I had to make some phone calls to get the process going. Now I have to wait for them to call me back. This is good news for us. There may be a gap in between the ending of the current program I'm on and this new one though. Hopefully we won't be too long without money.
How are you doing?
I am glad to hear from you. I am sure that the situation with your mom continues to be really sad, but it is good that you were able to relive a few good memories over the last two days. If your mom isn't in pain that is a good thing.
It is great news about your daughter. That will help your next few months to go somewhat more smoothly. Get that paperwork in as soon as you can.
I am okay. We still don't know about my husband because the doctor hasn't called in a week and a half. So hopefully my husband will actually get the courage to call himself tomorrow.@SweetPea321
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My Mom has morphine as needed for the pain. She was willing to take that when I told her about it, so that's good.
Today I had a physical and my doctor tried to do a pap smear, but I couldn't tolerate the speculum thingy. They take too long pushing and digging around and I just couldn't do it. I felt stupid because as women we're expected to tolerate pain because we have babies, but I've only had c sections. My last pap smear was in 2013. I tried last year, but they took too long as well and couldn't finish.
I was just trying to do some household chores and going up the stairs hurt my knee really bad. I guess that shot only works for about 5 weeks.
I hope your husband is ok. My doctor said next year I have to have a colonscopy. I'm not looking forward to that.
Sorry for the rough pap smear. Have you thought about changing doctors? My pap smear usually takes under one minute. I barely have time to get uncomfortable before it is done. But I do know that some women's insides are shaped in ways that make it more painful.
My husband finally called today after nearly two weeks and got the classic "oh, we weren't planning on calling you because everything was fine." This was after the doctor immediately after the surgery told me that the mass was large enough to be concerning and that we should expect to be back in six months to a year. Now they are saying three years. I am not pleased that he is allowed to scare people like that and then think it is nothing.
Anyway things are okay here going into the weekend.
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I'm so sorry you had to go through that scare. So unnecessary! They were wrong for that. Results should be given as soon as possible. You have the right to feel upset. Thank God he's ok though.
Kind of like me going to the ER last night. They did an ultrasound and said my pain wasn't a blood clot, but could be a baker's cyst behind my knee or just pain from my osteoarthritis. Then I read the doctor's report and it says that they did find a cyst behind my knee. So I do have one for sure, not "could be." Get your information together, I thought. He told me there was nothing found in the ultrasound.
I'm in so much pain, Vase, it's hard to go up and down my stairs. I'm getting a prescription cane next week. I might have to stop my psych meds to take pain meds now. I can't walk very good at times. I don't want to cook or stand. It hurts to sit too.
As for the pap smear...under a minute would be tolerable, but they are slow; my doctor and the doctor who tried last year
I am sorry for the walking pain. That makes everything so much harder. Hopefully you can get a good diagnosis and slowly figure it out. Sometimes it just takes a bunch of patience which can be so hard when you just want to be able to walk.
Does heating or icing the knee do anything? I am presuming not.
Hopefully the pain will lessen tomorrow for you.
My day was fine. I am coordinating a big walking tour with two classes tomorrow so I am hoping that will go okay.
How is your mom?@SweetPea321
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What does the walking tour entail, Vase?
I plan on seeing my Mom again soon. Our last visit with my cousin and his wife was good. We are leaving on the 6th to go to my Dad's. I'm not excited for the 3 amd a half hour drive, but I'm excited to see him, his wife and my eldest daughter. She'll drive over and spend the night after school.
I still don't know what to do about the pain with my leg. It hurts behind my knee and in my calf. In order to take Tramadol (my go to pain med in the past), I have to quit my antidepressant and anti-psychotic meds and I can't stop cold turkey. I'm in so much pain!
It is great that you are going to go and see your dad and your daughter. You have definitely needed that for a while. Hopefully it will allow you to reset things a bit. Seeing your mom again is excellent too.
I am so sorry about the knee. You could try getting a second opinion on the pain meds. Always remember there are options out there. Talk to your psychiatrist too. They might have some ideas.
The walking tour went fairly well today. It was a tour of our city's African American community as part of my diversity class. So it involved organizing with another class, getting a bus rented, convincing college kids that they wanted to get up on a Sunday morning at 9 am (the hardest part), getting everyone to download the tour on their phones and walking the trail. We all learned a lot and it helped to put everything in geographic perspective. We are doing something similar on April 21 that will be even more logistically challenging. I am just hoping that I can pull it off. The end of spring semester is always very, very full. @SweetPea321
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Good evening, Vase! How are you? Even though I'm in pain, I'm happy today. I took a shower and washed my hair 2 hours ago. I'm so excited for this trip I can't stop thinking about it. My eldest turns 17 on Wednesday and I can't wait to give her this gift bag the next day. I've been planning on giving her a gold nameplate necklace for years. I also got a few gifts from Macy's and Hobby Lobby. Last year I didn't have this income around her birthday so I didn't get her anything. I'm already in the works of this new program for parents of disabled children so I can continue getting paid.
Tomorrow I'll see the ortho doctor about my leg pain, and then I have an appointment with my primary provider after Easter break. The Easter bunny is coming, Vase! Jelly beans and Cadbury eggs 😁 Will you be seeing your parents for the holiday?
It is so nice to hear that things are going well. It sounds like you have a very nice Easter ahead. I am glad that you get to see some doctors afterwards as well. It is good that you are realizing how much better things are now than they were a year ago!
My day has been a bit rougher to be honest. Some of it was expected and some not so much. My mother-in-law, the eternal survivor, may be entering her final weeks according to hospice nurses. She is 95 and has been on hospice care since June. She even survived a bout with COVID in early December. So it has been a long, much expected goodbye and overall we are good with it. But as with any death, you are never sure what your next emotion is going to be. It looks like my husband will be with his mom for Easter rather than with us. That will be good for him but a bit odd for the rest of us.
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Sounds like Easter may be his last holiday with his mom. I called my Dad to ask him a car question and his wife answered and said he was having a bad time. He just found out that the scan showed that the cancer spread to his brain. He's going to have radiation for the head, but not for the lymph nodes I guess. I wanted to ask how long he has to live, but was afraid to ask that. They still want us to come on Thursday and stay until Easter. I wonder if this will be my Dad's last holiday.
Today I went to the orthopedic doctor and I'm gonna have some gel injection for my knee on the 19th.
Tonight is my daughter's 3rd grade concert. I'm excited to see her goof off and keep climbing down the stage like she did last concert lol. Maybe she'll do better this time.
I am sorry to hear about your dad. You had said before that the cancer wasn't responding to treatment well.
What is interesting about life is that you don't ever know how much time you will get with someone. People can also rebound. Younger people can die tomorrow. We just get to enjoy what we have.
I am so glad that you get to watch your daughter's show tonight. I bet that she will do a great job and make you smile at least once.
I will hopefully get to watch my youngest perform next week. @SweetPea321
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That's true, Vase. We never know how much time we have. Hopefully I can get as much visits in with my parents as possible.
My daughter's concert was so cute. She did a good job. She sat down in between songs lol, but that's why they put her on the end of the row.
Good news. I'm able to take the pain med with my psych meds after all. Since I gotta wait until my next cortisone shot for relief. I also got a cane to help on those hard to walk days.
I'm ready for my trip tomorrow. I may not post during this holiday, but I will return for sure on Monday. I hope you have a good holiday, even though your husband will be gone. Take care, Vase & Hoppy Easter 🤗
I look forward to hearing from you on Monday. I also am going to take a brief break, I think. My mother-in-law did indeed pass away this evening. But she was surrounded by her children and love. It doesn't get much better than that.@SweetPea321
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My condolences, Vase. Glad she went with her family around her though.
My Easter visit was nice. Dad was lively until towards the end. The last day he wasn't doing so well. He was having a hard time walking and i helped him get in and out of his chair. It was hard to see Daddy looking so frail. He's only 135 lbs now. The day before he showed me how to put the oil in my car. He dropped the dipstick and got down on the ground to get it before I could call my daughter outside to get it for us. My Dad is tough. I had a nice visit with my step mom too. She's a nice lady and I feel sorry for her going through this time right now. I wish I could help them more.
How was your holiday?
I am glad that you had a good visit with your Dad. Just having you there I am sure really brightened his spirits, and your stepmom's too. It is never fun to see anyone in pain, but knowing that you brought them peace for a little while helps. Did you get to see your older daughter as well?
We did okay for the holiday. My husband's family was well prepared for my mother-in-law's passing so the grief has been manageable. I was able to see all three of my boys on Easter, but only for about an hour and half for my oldest. We did have a nice meal together and I got to sing in church for Easter which was nice.
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Good evening, Vase. Yes, I got to spend time with my eldest daughter on Thursday and Friday until 3 because she had to go back to work. I even saw my half sisters and stepsister. I haven't seen them since I was 15, so it was awkward for me. I was nervous. Dad was surrounded by all of us. It was nice to see a smile on his face. It was nice to see the house too.
Today Jasmine and I have sore throats and sniffles. It went from winter to summer overnight. It's 80 degrees. Later this week it's supposed to go down. I want to enjoy spring as long as possible. I don't like summer.
Are you glad the holiday is over? Tomorrow I have a meeting with my fiscal entity and on Thursday I plan to go see Mama. How's your week looking?
It is really good that you got a chance to see everyone even if things were somewhat awkward.
We had the reverse and it was finally a little cooler here today. We had been in the high 80s and dropped to the mid 70s. A few refreshing breezes were nice.
It is actually really intense this week. My youngest son is in the play Grease as Vince Fontaine the TV announcer. The show starts tomorrow night. I will be there tomorrow night, Thursday, and for part of Saturday's performance before dashing to my other son's rugby game. All sorts of family and friends and coming to see the show as well.
So especially for the next two nights, I may not be able to get to 7 Cups. My son said at the moment that the play is currently 2.5 hours. But I am looking forward to it because they have had a really rough time putting it together and they deserve to have some good nights. I will be back as soon as I can. @SweetPea321
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That's alright, Vase. Enjoy your son's play. Grease is a fun one. I've nothing to report today, except I have a cold and I thought it was Thursday all day until I showed up to an appointment that was for tomorrow. Oops lol.
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Every now and then my daughter says, "Life is amazing" and I think to myself...she's right 🤔
I will be back tomorrow. Still really overwhelmed tonight. @SweetPea321
You take all the time you need, Vasey 🤗 I'll be here. A couple days ago, it got up to 88 degrees. Today it snowed. No wonder we have colds. This weekend wasn't as bad as it usually is for me on the weekends. It's already almost over, so that's good. Ugh, I still have alot of laundry to do. I did two loads today.
I was telling my aunts in a group text about my mom and also that my Dad is going through radiation right now for his head. Then I found out that one of my uncle's is starting radiation on Monday. So much cancer in my family on both sides. I guess that's what happens when we get older. Knees give out, then...cancer 😱
I visited my Mom on Friday. Didn't get to talk as much as I wanted for the hour I was there because she was being interviewed by the fbi (the voices really) and i had to be quiet and even step out for awhile. I did manage to get Grandma's recipe for Meats on the Bottom from her. She has a good memory.
And how are you doing?
I took my daughter to the ymca on Saturday. She kinda liked it, but complained still. I guess that broke the weekend up a little.
It has been a really emotional weekend to tell the truth. I also absorb other people's emotions so I ended up quite drained. I am sure that I will recover as the week progresses though.
Grease has actually been a drama and a half. Two weeks ago (two days before my mother in law died) cast members began dropping out of the show because the director was yelling too much. My son stayed, but many of the remaining cast members had to pick up new roles, learn new dances, new lines and new singing with only 5 rehearsals left. They managed to pull off a fantastic show so I was quite proud of all of them. Many members of my husband's family and my own elderly parents were in town so I also had to deal with all of those logistics.
And on top of that my middle son was playing in a championship rugby match. So I only got to see half of the final day of the play yesterday and then had to drive an hour away to watch rugby in about 100 degree heat with no shade. They lost a heartbreaking match in double overtime and my son was devastated. He had wanted to win the game in honor of his grandmother who died. So that was a different emotional issue.
But I survived it all.
Sorry to hear about the new cancer diagnosis, but I am glad that you got a little time with your mom. @SweetPea321
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I think you care alot about people, Vase, and that's better than not caring enough. But still...you just gotta care for yourself too. Your health and happiness are just as important as others.
That director was yelling at high school kids? What a jerk! I wouldn't wanna act for him. Your son is strong to stick with it and not let some a-hole ruin his enjoyment of acting.
My day was uneventful. The back of my knee is still hurting. I have an orthopedic appointment on the 19th. We'll see what can be done, if anything.
I was talking to a theater professor about it last night and she said it is happening in theaters everywhere. There were many directors who yelled to get their point across and it was accepted practice until COVID. Now they are beginning to realize that they don't need to do that. I am sure that my son's director has learned an important lesson. She is quite passionate about what she does and gives her all. Even the person who yells needs to be granted grace sometimes.
I am doing better today. I have a big event at the end of the week that I am nervous about, but it will come together. We had a giant turtle lay eggs in our yard so that was fun to watch.
Sorry to hear about your knee. I hope that it is at least a little better tomorrow.@SweetPea321
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I yell once in awhile when my kid bites me or something, but to yell at other people's kids over a play is too much. Maybe she needs anger management?
Nice you got a visit from a giant mama turtle. We saw some bald eagles at my Dad's. That was neat.
I'm tired tonight. This cold is taking it out of me.
I think that the director just needs to take on less stuff. She does so much for the school that she practically lives there. Anyway, it is done now.
My Environmental History class just finished reading a book the bald eagle. It was a really nice one because it was optimistic. I am hoping that they become a little less pessimistic about the direction of the environment in the future by having read it.
I hope that the cold is better tomorrow.@SweetPea321
Hi Vase,
I seem to have colds forever. Feels like that anyway. I couldn't stop coughing today to take a nap. Oh well...at least it's just a cold and not pneumonia. My poor Dad is in the hospital with pneumonia right now. He called having pneumonia his "favorite thing" since he seems to get it often.
My date with the ortho doc was a dud. He didn't do anything for me lol. Well, he couldn't do anything for me at this time. My insurance rejected the gel shot because I haven't gone through 4 weeks of physical therapy, so now I gotta make room in my schedule for that. I already exercise my legs with the cubii at home. I doubt pt will seriously help, but I'll do it so I can get the shot.
It's a dreary, rainy day here.
Our McDonald's briefly tried to cut out straws with these sippy lids, but switched back to the regular ones with holes for straws. People don't want to stop using straws. I thought it was kind of dumb, they said they're trying to help the environment. That's fine and all, but what about the plastic cups? If we stop using straws, there's still these big plastic cups we use.
Maybe the PT will help more than you think. It could stretch your knee in ways that make things better. It also is good to try to be active in general.
I do agree that straw bans don't seem to go too far. But they do definitely help birds and any plastic we get out of the environment is better than none. Our city has a pretty complete ban and even McDonald's has to use paper straws. But plastic lids and everything else plastic isn't good. Hopefully we will start moving new directions on that front. One step at a time.
It was pretty nice here today but a little too cold inside with the air conditioning. @SweetPea321
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It was another rainy day. The rain eventually turned into snow and it snowed the fluffiest snowflakes. It was quite beautiful I thought. It already melted and we're back to rain.
My depression hasn't been so bad lately. I think my focus is on my leg pain. It hurts on the back of my knee and into my calf. I can't fully stretch it out. I'm waiting for them to contact me for physical therapy. I'll try to keep an open mind about it.
I'm feeling kind of low tonight. Thinking about the weight loss surgery. I may have to do that since my leg hurts so bad to exercise amd iM tired of being fat.
I am so sorry that you are feeling low. Take it all a step at a time (figuratively and literally). You have gone through a lot in the last few years. The fact that your body has paid a price for that is not surprising. It is good to know that you can always turn that around though. Being in rain isn't easy but hopefully tomorrow will be sunnier.
I am so sorry that I missed last night. My big event was today and I spent all of yesterday cooking for it. I am very, very tired tonight. It was all quite chaotic, but it was successful I think. One of my classes hosted a large group of over 30 refugees for a tour of the local history museum and lunch on campus. I had only been expecting 20 so logistically things were more challenging especially with tons of little kids running around. But we didn't run out of food and everyone seemed happy. Refugees lead tough lives so a day where they can relax a bit is important.
But I will use the weekend to recover a bit. @SweetPea321
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Dear Vase,
I hope you're having a relaxing weekend after all that hard work. Thank you for helping others. You are an angel 😇 I had a nap this afternoon. It feels good to rest my leg because I have a popliteal cyst on the back of my knee. It's small and there's nothing to do for it. Hopefully it goes away on its own and doesn't get bigger.
I over ate today. I asked my doctor about a weight loss med that's for people with high blood pressure. I'm gonna guess that she'll still say no for some reason. I just need some help with my weight.
I haven't showered for a week. It hurts to stand and my leg makes me not want to shower even more than my depression. But I'm going to shower now after I send this message.
I'm thankful for all the blessings and time with my family on this wonderful Earth. Happy Earth Day ❤🌎
