Need a friend
I have been very low lately and I am trying to get all the help I can. I would love it if anyone who has problems with depression would want to share with me their experiences and make a friendship and support for each other. Anyone?
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@ClassicalMe Hi nice to meet you! I have had three depressive episodes in the last three years and it has been really exhausting! Today was the first nice day after a long time. How about you? What's your story?
@Beginagain31 hi! Nice to meet you too:) i'm glad to hear you're having a good day! I live with a roller coaster of emotions. I go through days where I passionately want to die or I can't seem to make it out of bed, and I'm sad and cry at every little thing, then the next day I can be really happy and encouraging... I agree, it's VERY exhausting! I think it really helps to have a reliable support for those days where you just arent feeling superb. And I'm a great person to understand that.
@ClassicalMe Are you on therapy or medication? I started with Zoloft but now doctor told me to start taking a new one, a mood stabilizer because my moods sometimes go high. I also plan to go back to therapy. How do you cope when you're depressed? What do you do?
@Beginagain31 I do admittedly speak to a therapist on this site, and I take medications, but TBH nothing legally prescribed. I have a dog and he helps me cope with alot I think, and this site helps some too. Sometimes I just pick a spot on here (forums, therapist, listeners, my feed, etc.) and just start typing, anything, whatever I feel. I often delete it later, but at the moment it helps me cope. Sucide prevention TEXT lines are actually really cool, despite being a tad cliche, and they have talked to me through alot of tough nights. I get anxiety talking to people is why I use the texting line and not talking in person. Honestly, I'm still working on coping. I still have really bad days that I screw everything up and ruin any progress I make, or where I just am flat out depressed and nothing helps, But I think as long as your moving (frontwards OR back), your good. When you stop moving, then you run into problems.
@ClassicalMe I go through many days with the same feelings. I am on prescribed medication, but unfortunately don't have a therapist. I live in South Korea and most of the English speaking therapists are in the Seoul area and are very expensive. My depression was fine up until a few months ago and it has rapidly gotten worse. I took a new job and both the job and where I live are not conductive to my life. I started talking with one of the listeners on this site and told her that I had thoughts of ending my life and she said it made her cry. Right now it is hard for me to change anything and that is really bad. I know I need to make changes to reduce my stress and anxiety. Physically getting in better shape and eatting better food would be a good start.
So you are not alone. If you want to talk let me know.
@Beginagain31 Also, let me add, It's really good to hear from you! :)
@ClassicalMe Animals are amazing to me because they can make you smile no matter how low you feel. I cope by watching stand up comedy or just youtube clips to get distracted from depression. Also, mindfulness really helps me with anxiety. I think my meds are starting to work. I still have negative thoughts but my anxiety is gone and I feel calm. When did your depression start?
@Beginagain31that is an excellent idea, I'll have to think of that next time I get super low. If you don't mind me asking, what's your favorite things to watch on YouTube? Also, have you heard of an app called IFunny? For some weird reason, the stupidness, and believe me it can get dumb you just have to endure it to get to the funny, makes me laugh no matter how depressed I am. I started noticing my depression heavily when I turned 12 and my mood swings(or this rollercoaster as I like to call it) have gotten worse little by little as the years passed. How about you? Was depression a sudden thing or was it a gradual change?
@ClassicalMe Lately I watch a lot of Bill Burr or listen to podcasts and things like that... I also love to watch Stephen Fry s documentary on manic depression, have you seem it? . I ve never heard of IFunny, I ll check it out. My depression was sudden and out of nowhere, though I had been emotionaly unstable since puberty.
@Beginagain31 I'm sorry, I mean no offense or to make light of a heavy subject, but the puberty thing cracked me up and I almost fell out of bed laughing!!! Haven't we all? hahaha I've never heard of any of those things, but I'll look at them. If you don't mind me asking, how long do your phases of depression last? Mine last anywhere from a couple hours to sometimes like a week. I hope you're having a good day(or night depending where you are in the world)!
@ClassicalMe My episodes last for couple of months, but I really hope that will change when I start therapy and continue with medication. When you get better, are you just stable and your usual self or does your mood go up?
@Beginagain31 Sorry I didn't get back to you right away, it's been a crazy couple days for me. To answer your question, I think it's different each time. Sometimes I get estatic and sometimes I'm just okay and content. But anyways, since I haven't heard from you in a minute, How have you been? Did you do anything exciting over the weekend? I hope I'm not being to nosy, If I am just let me know that it's none of my business hahaha! I hope your having a good day! 
@Beginagain31
I am new here, as of today... I would really like to be your friend. I really need someone to talk to and be friends with that understands where I'm coming from and can relate to me. Maybe we can be email penpals?
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As I came across your thread I think about the fact that it has now been over 8 years since I last had a friend to talk to. 8 years without a 'phone call, without an e-mail, without a visit. Depressive illness is entwined with social isolation.
It is fading from my memory now but there is still perhaps a dimly lit recollection of warm conversations, they used to flow like a poem, now they are only echoes.
My depression started suddenly, it was a Vortex, and I have never been the same since.
But there is some light within the tunnel; if I put the effort in, with as much will as I can manage, I can still enjoy my piano, going out on my bike (the Church of the Open Road) and being with my children and cat. There are good things all around me. Maybe people like us can see the good things in our midst but we cannot move to reach them.
I would also like to add that reaching out to someone, revealing this curse, is an incredibly important conversation. It is not the same as revealing that you have been struggling with a bad back. So I admire the bravery of anyone who chooses to do so, in whatever way they see fit.
