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My mind is a tornado

Solitaryshadow September 14th, 2015

How do I sleep tonight when everything in my head is spinning around and around? Sometimes it spins so fast that I can only see dark and feel wind trying to rip me to shreds. Other times it's like I'm in the eye of the storm. I briefly glimpse what is around me and find a calm. But just as fast as it calms it tears into me again. A tornado trying to tear me apart. I feel the tears come down my face as it consumes me again. What is hiding in its frightening winds that will hit me next? Will it pass by me? Or will it crush me and steal any chance of me returning?The winds pull at me. Trying to sweep me away. Stealing the breath from my lungs, suffocating me. I scream for help but the wind steals the words from my mouth. Carrying them away. No one hears them. When will the next calm come? Will it come at all?

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221Skye September 14th, 2015

@Solitaryshadow I am so sorry you're going through this. Honestly after reading that I'm sitting here crying a little because you write so beautifully, and more importantly, I know how that feels. That crushing overwhelming despair and that hopelessness was me pretty recently. It's still me sometimes. But like you said, you're at the eye of the tornado right now, and your life and everything is swirling around you so it's hard to see into the distance, but please know that there will be calm. There will be peace and hope. You're fighting, I can see that, and you're so strong I'm in awe, so I know you'll get there. And we're all here for you too in this struggle, you can always talk to us. Take care ❤️