My current thought process on my life.
I use to think what's the point in living, now I think what's the point in dying. I see no point in living or dying. I once thought if no one will remember me in the future, why do anything? But if no one will remember me, then why worry about how people feel when I act as me? No one will remember me after I die, so why not be me? I'm a nobody, I'm not worth it. But someone of importance is expected to act an behave in a certain way, they're restricted by it, a nobody like me isn't. Because I am a nobody, I'm not expected to do only certain things. Contradicting myself now, I do have one thing to live for now, but it's not a cliché thing like "hope, or to better society and be a part of a family". I think it's okay for a reason to live to be a selfish one. I believe anything is fine as long as you're not unnecessarily harming another living thing. I get a lot of crap for thinking this way, but it's what got me through life, and I'm going to stand by it.
@BrokenTail
Hi Tail, you are a free person, you have the right to choose how you want to live and nobody can take that away from you unless you act against the law. because you are not doing something extraordinary does not mean that you are a nobody. You have a personality, you have gathered experiences from the past and definitevely you stand up for your opinion so you are somebody! Not all of us are "super smart" or do something so good which catches the eye of the world , most of us are ordinary people like you and me. some of us decide to become less or very little selfish and enjoy connecting to others and to live as a family but that is personal choice. Whatever your choice is, it is yours. Whenever you want to change your path it is you who decides that, nobody else.
@BrokenTail
I think most people won't judge you for it. Most people would rather have a person live than die, so you are fitting in societal expectations. And most people who live are cruel and selfish anyway, why bother.
