Lost
I wish instead of people saying stupid cliches about happiness, i had someone who could give me a map and a way to get out of this maze of emotions that is depression. I have one consultation every 4 weeks, i wont get CBT until they decide im in the "right mindset" and they wont give me medication saying "it takes 8 weeks to get things sorted" when really they're just scared i'll overdose again. It feels so inconsistent just like its someone doing what they can to humor me i want to feel like someone wants to help me. The only thing anyone's worried about is why i did it, i didnt want to die but i just wanted to give up its been 8 years and im so tired of it, but im selfish for not thinking of anyone else and "my life isn't my own", when do i get to think about myself? When do i get to do what i want?
I just feel so pathetic and lost, i just want to give up.
@Portalkitty dearest kitty, i am so sorry you are feeling so low about yourself and your life. I cant imagine what you have been through to feel so less towards life. I want to let you know we are here for you and you can PM if you really want to open up and discover options for taking care of yourself. Sending a bag of kindness, love sunset :)
@Portalkitty I along with many listeners here have been exactly where you are right now. That is why we are here to 'walk' beside members like yourself during these difficult times of life. Please reach out to one of us for some heartfelt communication. -Stay Strong!
