I think I am struggling ? ( again ?)

Hi guys !

I just really need to let it out I guess.

I have been struggling with down period since I was eleven. This mean 18 years of hard times.

And since the beginning of december, it is a hard time again. I guess it is not helped by a lot of changes in my life. It seems harder this times. I can't find a handle on it. I am just so tired, exhausted, bored with everything and so damn angry with life.I know it had been hard for people who cares about me because I am so angry all the time. Helpless.

I just can't find in me the strengh to hope the future will be diffrent. Or that life can really be fullfilling, as I was told it would be growing up.

I am really just down and tired. And grateful you read this. I really needed to just share. It helps.

Thank you.