Is self-care even worth it?
The past week, I've been working on my self-care. I'm drinking lots of water, exercising daily (even if it's just light exercise), going for walks, eating healthy breakfasts, shower daily, brush my teeth and wash my face with actual anti-acne face-wash twice a day (I even floss!).
While these are all good habits to have, I don't really feel any better. It just all seems so pointless. I'm forcing myself to go through the motions and keep up the habits, but when it comes to actually doing something productive afterwards, (I'm supposed to be writing my B.A. Thesis) I find myself having spent all my energy on on trivial things.
Sometimes I just wonder: does it really matter if I exercised today? So what if I don't brush my teeth, I'm not going anywhere. Why bother with a healthy breakfast if you're just gonna get hungry or start emotional-eating two hours later anyways?
I'd honestly rather lie down, close my eyes and forget about everything for the next couple of months, maybe years.