I'm just done...
So I'm seeing this therapist, and she's obsessed with treating my anxiety even though I hardly notice it anymore bc my depression overshadows it. She'll "water down" my symptoms so to speak (not being able to get out of bed unless forced, ect.) and showed only very very slight concern when I confessed I was borderline suicidal (and getting worse by the week). I've been seeing her since the end of August, and she's diagnosed me with adjustment disorder (which feels very wrong). My mom doesn't understand, she keeps telling me to cut screen time and go exercise which I can't just go do because of the intensity of my depression. It's really getting debilitating, seriously, and I really don't know what to do anymore. I absolutely HATE school, I can't do anything, I feel like a failure, I can barely get out of bed, I don't really feel emotion anymore. I feel like the color has gone out of my life, and I can barely remember the last time I was actually happy (and it was brief). I honestly feel so hopeless, my mind is spiraling out of control....
Are you allowed to switch therapists? Maybe you could do that. Maybe you need to be a bit assertive next time you go to therapy. If you talk about your depression and she downplays it or talks about your anxiety instead. Say no that isn't what is bothering me, I am finding (insert problem here) really difficult and I need to talk about it/need some help. I had the same problem when I had my treatment. Don't worry about offending them, they have heard worse. Plus it is their job to help you with your problems, not for them to choose which problems they want to treat.
You can even say I have spoken to my friends and I know the way I am feeling is not normal for a teenager, my friends don't feel like this and I am really struggling.
Good luck x
@Pinktrex thanks. My mom says I could switch therapists after awhile if this one still isn't working for me. But I don't know how long that'll be, and I can't switch on my own
@ChristmasTreesInTheMoonlight
Okay you will just need to keep emphasising to your mum how important this is to you and that you really want to switch
@ChristmasTreesInTheMoonlight Have you tried a 1-on-1 on here in the meantime? You definitely need someone to talk to who is going to listen to you, I know the medical process of switching over to a new therapist is lengthy at best. My mom did the exact same thing to me when I was a teenager, she just assumed I was being 'a normal teenager' or being lazy. I ended up not getting diagnosed until I was 25, after I had already lost my job due to my symptoms. It wasn't until I said "please Mom, I'm really in trouble right now. I need better help" that I was finally taken to a psychiatric hospital. It could be that you need to sit down and have that moment with your therapist and your mom.
