Ugh whatever I have nowhere else to let out my emotions or lack there off. I really can't take how apathetic i became and how quickly i lose interest in everything. Posting this has no point either and idk why im doing it, just like everything else in my life. I've lost so much of the intresting and compelling parts of my personality and i can't get her back no matter how much i try. ill be waiting for you, me. i hate how much smarter i used to be, i feel like wasted potential, i want my cognitive abilities back.