How do I convince myself that I deserve better things
I'm an artist and I'm 25. I'm struggling. I was abused throughout my childhood right up-to when I was 18. It took me so long to even have the semblance of a normal life. I've been working really hard at getting better. It feels like its the only goal I seem to have in life-to even get to a point where I may have mediocre things. I've been working really hard to be better at my work but any appreciation and opportunity I get to move forward I seem to reject it. It's hard for me to make art when I start to get recognition for it. I don't think I deserve it. I don't think I deserve anything. I don't know where the idea came from, if it was my parents that put it in my head or it was life, I don't think I deserve better than pain. How do I change that for myself? I'm the one keeping myself here in hell because I think this is what I deserve. I keep wasting my gifts because I don't know how to handle praise. I don't think I want it, but I need it. And I keep removing myself from situations where anyone would tell me I'm doing something well
@wildOnee
Hello! Sorry for the really late reply. Hopefully your situation is better now. Take care!
@wildOnee my friend the one thing you can do for sure, even if you don't believe it first, start saying the opposite of what these thoughts(all the bad you can acknowledge) say to you, just plain practice. this is the medicine to everything... just try it and for more than just a few days. if you get frustrated it's normal i am going through the same thing and trust me if you talk with people here with a little help by practicing things yourself you will start believing in better things for yourself. that's all i had to say have a good day mate