Have i lost the plot???
Been on medication for depression about 3 months now. Been doing okish but now starting to go backwards. I feel very anxious feel like i wanna explode. I have awful thoughts and my mind is in full blown turmoil and i don't know why. Im upset by these feelings my mind is killing today. I put my smile on for my kids but its getting so hard. i feel like im looking from the outside in to the world. Have i lost the plot? Im at the drs tomorrow again but i find that si stressful too. I just want it all to stop 😢
I'm in a similar boat. It's been 5 months for me on a new medication. I know it's causing my increased anxiety and anger. I totally understand the feeling of wanting to explode! I can't focus on anything. However, I am experiencing some benefits (fewer suicidal thoughts, much needed weight loss, etc.) that I'm not ready to forfeit. I've tried a few different meds and all of them have produced undesirable side effects. I feel trapped. I wish I could plug my Dr. into my head so she could feel what I feel and help me figure this out!
Good luck to you. You're not alone on this battlefield!
Sorry to hear you feeling pretty much same. Totally agree i also wish i could plug myself into the drs. I go and cant explain how i feel when i get there. I think about suicide most of the time. Not to end my life i guess but to stop the feeling i have in my head.
I totally understand. I think Nietzsche said it best: "The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night" or something to that effect. Although it tends to grow very cumbersome. Hang in there; sometimes randomly recalling something that made me laugh (like REALLY laugh) helps to pull me up a bit.