Have i lost the plot???

I'm in a similar boat. It's been 5 months for me on a new medication. I know it's causing my increased anxiety and anger. I totally understand the feeling of wanting to explode! I can't focus on anything. However, I am experiencing some benefits (fewer suicidal thoughts, much needed weight loss, etc.) that I'm not ready to forfeit. I've tried a few different meds and all of them have produced undesirable side effects. I feel trapped. I wish I could plug my Dr. into my head so she could feel what I feel and help me figure this out!

Good luck to you. You're not alone on this battlefield!

Sorry to hear you feeling pretty much same. Totally agree i also wish i could plug myself into the drs. I go and cant explain how i feel when i get there. I think about suicide most of the time. Not to end my life i guess but to stop the feeling i have in my head.

I totally understand. I think Nietzsche said it best: "The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night" or something to that effect. Although it tends to grow very cumbersome. Hang in there; sometimes randomly recalling something that made me laugh (like REALLY laugh) helps to pull me up a bit.