Getting Bad

I'm starting to feel worthless again. Alone. Unwanted. Betrayed. Untrusted. Unloved. Like people have a valid reason for always leaving me. I cry every night so much so that I cry myself to sleep. And my dreams bring me such pain and sorrow that I wake up in the morning with tears in my tears and a silent scream in my throat. I just feel I have no one to talk to. The person I always talked to hates me right now because someone (he won't tell me who) is telling him horrible things about me, about things I'm supposedly doing. And since he and I are separated by a thousand miles, he doubts. He believes the other person. I just feel like he stays with me because he's a good guy. And doesn't want to be the one to end things. I just feel that everyone at one point, always decides to leave me. To abandon me. And that just breaks me every single time.