Feeling worthless and unmotivated

@HobbitsandElves

Feeling worthless and unmotivated => well in life we all have this. it's normal.

Hey everyone. I'm not doing great right now. My depression reared its ugly head a couple days ago and I've been fighting it as best I can, but my normal coping mechanisms aren't working. Exercising didn't help. Yoga didn't help. Watching a movie didn't help. Heck, even doing what I love, filmmaking, didn't help.=> don't be too stress out, take a break and breath and then tried to figure it out something else plus ask for someone that have overcome this or expert to help you, someone you can trust.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I'll never be good enough, and the age disconnect between me and my friends has felt a lot more pronounced lately. Just so everyone knows, I'm 17 and the youngest of my friends is 19 while the oldest is 28. It gets really hard to connect with them sometimes and I sometimes feel like they don't take me seriously because I'm so young. I feel like all of them are leaps and bounds ahead of where I'm at in regards to filmmaking and I can't help but feeling like a failure.=>Don't be so down, it's ok to be failure when you are young but then learn from it and be better, if you have older friends learn from them don't show off somethings on them, you are still are not experince enough and needed to learn a lot, accept it if you are being taken lightly but then be wise.

I put on a brave face during the day, but when I'm alone, it gets really hard to do anything except sit and be numb. I should probably talk to a therapist, because this is something that I've been dealing with for a few years now, but I can't afford both a therapist and university. Which is really sad, because I know I need help, but I don't have the means to do so.=>You can talk to me if you want, you can leave a message on me or talk to listener here and you can write all your worriness in a private diary or somethings to make you better.

Something that did help a little today is listening to one of my favorite bands, Shinedown, and the songs from the ATTENTION ATTENTION album. Particularly Get Up and Brilliant, but songs only get me so far. I just wish I could go back to the way I was a couple weeks ago; content and excited for the future. But I don't know if I can even find the motivation to do even the things I love.=>YES YOU CAN, Fight Your BRIGHT FUTURE !!

This too, will pass. I know that. It always does. But this time feels harder. And I don't know if I could tell you why.=>it is because you make excuses and being too stress out plus you are lonely, you need someone to guide you while you are young.

Thanks for reading. It helps knowing that someone, somewhere, understands.=>OFC :)

@HobbitsandElves Hope you get better :)