Feeling unsure about future/present with anxiety and depression
Hi, I don't know how to feel right now. I feel unstuck in where I'm at in life that I can't say why I feel a certain way which feels overwhelming and can't put into words what it is what is making me feel like that. I know what feelings I'm experiencing but I can't put it down to anything but the feelings I'm having for the future and present. I got a lot of things on mind I always think about. I have a good decent enough life I'm fine in all that but the way I want my life to go I should be there and as I got bf and planning future and him thinking about his and me. Also his kids makes me wonder where we gonna go. We love each other but the problems got now is always there and not making difference until he does. Nothing wrong with our relationship just he wants to move out I'm considering it and he's looking for job. Future plans we got but I'm thinking about myself and where I see myself. I'm not really happy in myself as keep thinking by now I should have what I want. I don't know if the age is taking I'm 28 but I'm not thinking major serious commintments yet. Is it maybe the age recently turned 28 I'm feeling different way coming up to 30? I just wanna be happy I'm not. I'm living with my mum it's just us. It's ok but thinking need place, I got a job I'm ok in going alright but thinking about how long staying now outlining what I want to go right where on the ladder I want to move further up to do a higher working role, I'm thinking about needing to look my best and maintain that ad that not to go away as need to keep it up and buy things for me and working out taking up hobbies etc. Don't have many friends only couple but I feel like most in this world that I am lonely and I don't have friends or any hobbies I just work see bf and look after myself if I can. I don't have social life. I want a better life. I want the next step. I'm just looking for advice on this how to move forward cuz I'm not happy until something changes. I've discussed this with bf already and we both know what needs to but things aren't moving forward. Maybe I'm expecting to much. Sorry for the long story.