Exhausted
Hi. So, lately, I haven't been the best. I haven't been good at all, actually. For the past 7 months, my mood has been down. Increasingly getting worse and worse with each waking day. I struggle with ocd, and my intrusive thoughts play a big part in my saddening mood. I've been struggling with them in silence for a while, which really takes a toll not just on me physically, but mentally as well. I feel as though if I open up, no one will understand, or they'll say "just get over it. They're thoughts. Just push them off." When in reality, it's not that easy. I just feel tired. My grades have been slipping, and I've been sleeping a lot more than I usually do. I'm just feeling as though I have no more options. Maybe I just shouldn't care about anything anymore? Maybe I should just force myself to be happy and push all of the sadness and hurt away? Maybe that will help? I have no idea, I'm just a bit tired, you know? But, I'm still going to try to fight. I'll try as hard as I can!
that’s amazing, i admire you for trying to find a way to see the light and reach it. i feel the same way, exhausted, wanting to sleep all the time, my academics are becoming less relevant to me, i don’t get enough sleep because i’m trying to keep up with my academics, i’m stressed about what college to go to, and i just feel empty.
@kananii
Wow, I thank you so much for replying to my post! I feel so much better knowing that I'm not the only one going through this! Dealing with school and everything is super challenging, and really difficult, so I completely understand you! My grades haven't been getting any better, and I'm getting a bit better mentally. I hope you are okay and doing well! If you need to talk, or have any questions, I'll be happy to support! We will get through this! Everything will be okay! You're amazing!✨
@MidnightGlow15
glowww!!!❤️ I'm so sorry to hear that and I'm so proud that you are not giving up!!! Look at you! You are so strong!! I understand what you're going through:( everything is confusing now,i get that opening up part too...yeah sometimes even I feel like what if nobody actually listens or cares if I talk to them but hey I'm here for you, we all are!! And I promise you, we will listen! ❤️ It's okay to be not okay glow❤️ It's fine!! Happiness can't be forced! I hope everything gets better soon and glowoowowow willl glowoowow againnnnn!!😀🥺❤️
@Basorexiaaa
Saaaam!❤️❤️🥺 Thank you so much for responding! I really appreciate that you took the time to right this amazing message back to me! You're truly one of my best friends, and I think you're just so amazing and supportive! I'm thankful that you said everything you said, because I really needed to hear that, especially with how this week has been going! Thank you for always being here for me, and for being a bright light that shines high! You truly bring the fun and happiness wherever you go, and honestly, I think you're the one that really has the glow! (Lmao, I unintentionally rhymed there xD) I hope you are okay! If you ever need to talk about anything, I'm here for you!❤️ You're amazing!✨
@MidnightGlow15
i- awwww😭❤️ Idk how to express my feelings but that was soooo sweeet😭😭 sjjxhdjsjsjs *hugsss if okayyy* glowowo😭❤️
@MidnightGlow15
Hi,
I suffer from a lot of intrusive thoughts as well, usually really gory, gross bodily harm type stuff, especially when I'm trying to be intimate with my partner. It really sucks.
As for feeling low energy, I can relate. I feel all the time like I'm wearing one of those stupid weighted blankets on my body even though I would never buy one of those - so claustophobic. I can pep talk myself and give my friends who are down good advice all day long but in reality this is an actual condition that we Did Not ask for. It's a legitimate medical condition. Anyway, I don't really have anything new to say that you didn't already address, but it was encouraging to read that you are dealing with the same things I am so maybe my post will be equally encouraging back. I support you, dude
@brynrobertson
Also I'll mention that I'm in graduate school and even though I usually get good grades I have been at a total standstill, like a deer in the headlights, all semester. I think a lot of it has to do with COVID 19. Online school really blows, but it won't be like this forever.
@brynrobertson
Hi, Bryn! Thank you so much for responding to me! To know that I'm not the only one struggling with this truly makes me feel so much better. I actually have very graphic and gory intrusive thoughts as well. They really are not easy to deal with, or talk about, and you're so strong for speaking up about it! It really does take the energy out of you, to a point where it's really impossible to do anything. I completely understand what you mean about the weighed blankets part. I can heavily relate to that. Your post was most definitely encouraging to me, and I am beyond thankful that my post was encouraging to you! Intrusive thoughts are seriously a pain, and truly can effect how we maneuver in our daily lives. I hope everything gets better for you in school! I know how hard it is to do work, as I am not doing so well in my classes as well. I hope you are doing well! If you have any questions, or simply just need to talk, I'm more than willing to listen! We'll get through this!✨
