Dwelling on the past
This is something I’ve struggled with for the past few years. So many things have happened and the bad times seem to stay on my mind the most. Because of these moments I always think I’m stupid and that I’m a failure and that it’s all my fault. Why cant I forget these things. I can barely remember a happy time anymore like it’s just going through the motions. I even compare myself to my past self. I was much more lively and responsible and skinny back then. Now I just procrastinate, avoid doing exercise, and I’m just so sad I can’t seem to enjoy anything anymore. Even my parents have noticed saying that “I’ve changed” and definitely not for the better. I get aggravated by them and just completely explode on them because of all the frustration that builds up. Then they say I have anger issues and that I’m crazy. What’s worse is that they don’t seem to understand my situation and think I’m spoiled. I’ve tried to pick myself up over and over yet it fails every time. It’s like I need someone to challenge my depressive thoughts because it seems that one voice always wins. It always seems like I brought this upon myself, that it’s my fault for becoming this way and I continue to blame myself. I don’t know what to do anymore. Its like I’ve completely given up. Maybe my parents are right..
@CrimsonRei Hello. It sounds like dwelling on the past is preventing you from experiencing joy in the present. How you perceive yourself can greatly affect your happiness in life. Focusing on what you've done wrong can lead to shame, low self-esteem and a distorted self-image. Conversely, thinking about what you can learn from your mistakes and do better next time can help you to feel competent and capable. It also seems that you are frustrated with your parents for not understanding and supporting you. To challenge that depressive voice that is putting you down and making you feel worthless, you might want to listen to voices that lift you up and encourage you. These resources may be helpful to you: https://www.7cups.com/depression-help-online/ https://www.7cups.com/family-stress/ Feel free to message me anytime if you want to talk more about this. I hope you find peace and joy in life.
