Don't want to bother my boyfriend
There are a lot of times when I'm alone and lonely, I just wanna call my boyfriend but I don't wanna be too anoying. He knows about my depression and says that he doesn't mind, but what if he really doesn't tell me that he'd rather do something else and feels forced to talk to me?
I'm very sensative along with my deppresion, if my boyfriend seems off or angry to me (which 90% of the time he isn't) I imediatly start to cry and pity myself and apologize prrefusely. I dont know how to stop myself from doing this and its tearing our relationship apart kinda. When I am upset about a normal thing or something went wrong that day, he does support me, but gets extreamly irritated when I cry over basically nothing. How do I control myself??
@Coldfallwaters okay first of all I relate to this a lot. I often blame myself for the slightest negative things, but what you are feeling is okay. Remember that feelings is what makes you human. I tried to hold my feelings in and i resulted in me crying in the bathroom and that was awkward cause he heard all of it lol. What I do is that I make sure that he doesn't have to take care of me, but that I sometimes just need a hug. He can like watch a tv show meanwhile we're cuddling aka me crying. Just knowing his preacence can be enough comfort for me, but everyone is different.