Disassociating and feeling tired of coexisting
There are moments where i fall into a depressive state. Right now, I just wanna express. I feel so tired of everyone and the world. I understand that this pessimism is unhelpful but my brain and body are tired. I dont feel like being anyone anymore. I dont feel like being a happy girlfriend, responsible daughter and student. I dont feel like being a leader. I just wanna sleep and never wake. I am most at peace when I am sleep. Im tired of everyone.
Im tired of feeling up and then down. Im tired of feeling useless and incapable and alone. It feels as if there’s nothing worth to live for, but as i look around theres plenty to live for. I just feel tired and alone in my thoughts.
Too disconnected and discouraged to find an affordable therapist. If i were to never wake up, life will proceed as is. I feel so small and insignificant to myself. to the world. nothing i do is good.
It can be tiring when so much is going on around us, but you always do matter and have a place in this world. I know it may not always feel like it but there is someone always grateful that you are around, even a complete stranger like myself😊
Sorry to hear. You sound very burnt-out.
but I understand the feeling though I live alone and have been single for endless years so I feel extremely isolated.
You mentioned you are a student. Surely your college would have some counselling services?
Check also if support groups exist in your area if not at school.
See how you can build up a small network around you if you cannot find it in family or partner. It's very likely someone within a close range is feeling the same!
Wish you well
Ps of course also important to run some tests for physical health if you have not been diagnosed with depression