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Depression

globalCupcake44 January 22nd, 2016

Sometimes you are dealing with yourself and your'e emotions that you have with your'e self. You just need to try to surround yourself with a bunch of people to help you out. Surrounding yourself with people that care about you is really important. Just try to not be around yourself.

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greenPerson5323 January 22nd, 2016

I recently went to the doctor to diagnose my depression although I've had it for years as it honestly feels a lot better having my family know because they support me no matter what. It's nice having people behind you

MidniteAngel January 22nd, 2016

It's important to surround yourself with a support network of caring and considerate people. But you don't have to distance yourself from you. Instead you have to stay away from negativity within yourself. Depression is not you, it's like a virus that has latched onto you. Find a way to be comfortable with yourself and those around, this way you can find a way to distance yourself from the negativity and darkness of depression.

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cosmicdreamer08 January 23rd, 2016

@MidniteAngel well said! I do think loving yourself is an important step towards battling depression. It also doesn't hurt to have people supporting you while going through the motions that is depression. Thank you for bring this subject to light. heart

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Hatemylife84 January 23rd, 2016

I don't wanna go on meds so I can't see the doctor anymore app. So much for community health. I honestly don't see what the point is anymore, I wish they never had of found me an called the ambulance. I hate living while being heartless, I feel empty all the time, my head hurts all the time. My kids are the ones suffering, they would be better off without me I reckon.

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MsJessica55 January 24th, 2016

@Hatemylife84

Hi,

I do not know what is going on with you, I can only go by your post. You say you have children who are suffering from your deep depression but you do not want to go on medication. If you have been to a therapist and they suggested you get on medication is may be because you have a chemical imbalance in your brain that is causing you to feel so depressed. If you could take a pill that could correct the chemical imbalance so that you could feel better, wouldn't you want to take it for both yourself and your children.

I have a chemical imbalance in my body causing me severe medical complications called diabetes. At first they gave me Metformin to control it but it only got it under control a little bit. I was starting to feel a little better though, but not enough to get through the day. Then the doctor prescribed Lantus and for a few months we had to adjust the medication until my blood sugars were down to a normal level. I, for the first time in years actually felt well. I don't like taking the medication and giving myself shots everyday, but I choose to listen to the doctor and take my medication because if I do not the diabetes will make me sick again and eventually kill me.

This is what happens with a chemical imbalance in the brain. Medication can replace and fix that imbalance. You, for the first time in a long time could not only feel better but actually feel happy and able to take care of yourself and your children in a way you both deserve. Please reconsider working with your doctor to help get you healthy again.

I hope to hear from you and I sincerely hope things get better :-)

MsJessica55 January 31st, 2016

@Hatemylife84

Just a bit concerned, it's been about a week since your post, how are you doing? Are you feeling any better.

Sending out some hugs and love your way heartheartheartheartheart

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Hatemylife84 May 8th, 2016

@MsJessica55

well I'm still around, I don't feel any better.

It is hard to smile everyday when all I can think about is killing myself.

I can't do this anymore, I'm tired but can't sleep, I'm hungry but barely eat, I have turned my kids into hermits like myself. I just want it all to stop

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MsJessica55 May 10th, 2016

@Hatemylife84

I haven't been on. Sunday I was still finishing up my final paper and got it in about 10:00 p.m. then went to work. Crashed yesterday, was totally exhausted. I am done and I am so very tired. I am at work right now, on break eating. I will catch up with everyone tonight and Wednesday night. I would very much appreciate talking to you one on one. I know it feels like you are in some kind of never ending dark tunnel that seems to be sucking both the air and life right out of your very self, but please remember, you are not alone in this world, you also have children. I will be online 9 PM EST, tonight. I am sending love and hugs your way.

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Hatemylife84 May 10th, 2016

@MsJessica55

i have just been online and received your message, I know it is after 9 an I'm sorry for wasting your time. I haven't mastered this app yet so I not sure how to do the one on one conversations. Sounds like you have been very busy.

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lavenderBunny6350 January 24th, 2016

I'm dealing with depression too ... I friend told me yesterday I'm great at making other people happy but I can't make myself truly happy

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globalCupcake44 OP January 25th, 2016

@lavenderBunny6350 I understand youre pain and what you are going through its hard to generalize what to do with yourself but, talking to people always helps me for the most part.

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yatish January 30th, 2016

meditation, dance and music are three ways to get rid of depression

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sunflowerevolution January 31st, 2016

@yatish These things are great at assisting mild depression but with severe depression it can't just get rid of it. I do those things and it doesn't just go away.

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cristiana33 January 31st, 2016

Quick notice @globalCupcake44

Moved your thread to Depression Support, it has not much to do with Chatrooms concerns.

sunflowerevolution January 31st, 2016

I have been through much loss in my life that I am beginning to realize I've suppressed my true feelings for, for quite some time. I am depressed and just beginning to fully admit and see it for what it is. I want to become a life coach and be the person I never had, for others. I have a way of helping people but when it comes to myself I can't get passed the action stage of all the things I have learned about getting life in order. I have tried medication but it all made me more suicidal, more depressed and anxious and did the opposite of it's job and I tried many different prescriptions. So now I am completely turned off from taking anything. I think for me it's not a chemical imbalance but more so a result from childhood trauma and other traumas and events. Conditioning if you will.

I decided today that I needed to be coached before I could coach. I took the first step and sat with an interview with a coach that may be able to help me but I am so nervous. I want change so bad but I freak out when I start the process. It doesn't help that my husband has anger and drinking issues. I have nowhere to go right now and I feel I can't work until I get right in my head but I need to work if I want to support my daughter and I on my own. I do not want to be co-dependent forever. I have to take action for my daughter and I and create consistent change.

I am an intelligent person and have all the tools I need to get going but it is so hard to stick with when the depression feels so deep. I am also sensitive and intuitive and sometimes I feel I lose sight of grounding myself from these energies. I have made a lot of mistakes in life and live in the past which makes it difficult to stay in the present moment. I do not want to be this way anymore. I am in a vicious cycle of not being able to afford help and also too anxious to go sit in an office. I felt so dark this past week and I am sick of it. I have realized it takes more than reading all the books, watching all the self help videos and being in the right forums. I truly feel I need a mentor. Someone to listen to me and have my back and help me get passed the idea of things and into the action phase.

Basic tasks are so hard for me every day, I have to seriously spend so much time talking myself into doing simple things if I even do them. I want to be a better mom for my daughter and break the cycle that my mom couldn't break so that she doesn't have to go through what I did as a kid with my parents substance and physical abuse. I feel over time my husband may get worse because right now his drinking and anger is seemingly mild. But I can feel it deep down it will just get worse, nothing I have done with compassion or tough love has helped. I have softened and grown, I don't participate in his battles the way he wants me to. Still nothing has changed for him.

I feel alone with no family to back me up. I feel scared that I may never be happy sometimes. But I keep trying to tell myself my daughter needs me to overcome the darkness within my mind.