Depression
Sometimes you are dealing with yourself and your'e emotions that you have with your'e self. You just need to try to surround yourself with a bunch of people to help you out. Surrounding yourself with people that care about you is really important. Just try to not be around yourself.
I recently went to the doctor to diagnose my depression although I've had it for years as it honestly feels a lot better having my family know because they support me no matter what. It's nice having people behind you
It's important to surround yourself with a support network of caring and considerate people. But you don't have to distance yourself from you. Instead you have to stay away from negativity within yourself. Depression is not you, it's like a virus that has latched onto you. Find a way to be comfortable with yourself and those around, this way you can find a way to distance yourself from the negativity and darkness of depression.
@MidniteAngel well said! I do think loving yourself is an important step towards battling depression. It also doesn't hurt to have people supporting you while going through the motions that is depression. Thank you for bring this subject to light. 
I don't wanna go on meds so I can't see the doctor anymore app. So much for community health. I honestly don't see what the point is anymore, I wish they never had of found me an called the ambulance. I hate living while being heartless, I feel empty all the time, my head hurts all the time. My kids are the ones suffering, they would be better off without me I reckon.
@Hatemylife84
Hi,
I do not know what is going on with you, I can only go by your post. You say you have children who are suffering from your deep depression but you do not want to go on medication. If you have been to a therapist and they suggested you get on medication is may be because you have a chemical imbalance in your brain that is causing you to feel so depressed. If you could take a pill that could correct the chemical imbalance so that you could feel better, wouldn't you want to take it for both yourself and your children.
I have a chemical imbalance in my body causing me severe medical complications called diabetes. At first they gave me Metformin to control it but it only got it under control a little bit. I was starting to feel a little better though, but not enough to get through the day. Then the doctor prescribed Lantus and for a few months we had to adjust the medication until my blood sugars were down to a normal level. I, for the first time in years actually felt well. I don't like taking the medication and giving myself shots everyday, but I choose to listen to the doctor and take my medication because if I do not the diabetes will make me sick again and eventually kill me.
This is what happens with a chemical imbalance in the brain. Medication can replace and fix that imbalance. You, for the first time in a long time could not only feel better but actually feel happy and able to take care of yourself and your children in a way you both deserve. Please reconsider working with your doctor to help get you healthy again.
I hope to hear from you and I sincerely hope things get better :-)
@Hatemylife84
Just a bit concerned, it's been about a week since your post, how are you doing? Are you feeling any better.
Sending out some hugs and love your way
@MsJessica55
well I'm still around, I don't feel any better.
It is hard to smile everyday when all I can think about is killing myself.
I can't do this anymore, I'm tired but can't sleep, I'm hungry but barely eat, I have turned my kids into hermits like myself. I just want it all to stop
@Hatemylife84
I haven't been on. Sunday I was still finishing up my final paper and got it in about 10:00 p.m. then went to work. Crashed yesterday, was totally exhausted. I am done and I am so very tired. I am at work right now, on break eating. I will catch up with everyone tonight and Wednesday night. I would very much appreciate talking to you one on one. I know it feels like you are in some kind of never ending dark tunnel that seems to be sucking both the air and life right out of your very self, but please remember, you are not alone in this world, you also have children. I will be online 9 PM EST, tonight. I am sending love and hugs your way.
@MsJessica55
i have just been online and received your message, I know it is after 9 an I'm sorry for wasting your time. I haven't mastered this app yet so I not sure how to do the one on one conversations. Sounds like you have been very busy.
I'm dealing with depression too ... I friend told me yesterday I'm great at making other people happy but I can't make myself truly happy
meditation, dance and music are three ways to get rid of depression
@yatish These things are great at assisting mild depression but with severe depression it can't just get rid of it. I do those things and it doesn't just go away.
Quick notice @globalCupcake44
Moved your thread to Depression Support, it has not much to do with Chatrooms concerns.