Depressed and stressed
Hello Depression is the game and stressin' is the name..... That was terrible.. I've just been feeling pretty bad about myself again. I've gone to therapy for over a year, recently lost my therapist he left the organization I am with. Thought I was managing okay. Anywho I can't seem to reach out to my friends, I isolate myself no matter how much they reach out to me and eventually they'll get tired of it and leave me because I've been doing it for so long. I feel awkward and weird when I hang out or talk to anyone like I'm not myself and haven't been for so long. I feel like I have no talents or skills and that I can't do anything. That everyone is better than me. Which affect my relationships because if they compliment me I assume they just say it to make me feel better. If they do something better than I did I get discourage about myself. And I am happy that they're skilled but I want to be talented too and I just feel like nothing most of the time. My coping mechanisms are starting to fail me, which is frustrating.
I completely understand how you are feeling. I have maybe 3 actual friends in my life because I tend to isolate myself and just sit in my dark corner. I have almost no good coping mechanisms anymore because I feel guilty for doing things for myself. You are not alone in this struggle and I for one am proud of you for stepping out and being willing to reach out for support. None of us can handle this on our own but as a community we can share each other’s burdens and make the journey a little easier. Hang in there!
Thank you I really appreciate your kind words. And hope that your doing a bit better as well, thank you for reaching out, you're right were stronger together!
Hi @SilenceisSolace
Tough and frustrating indeed ○hugs○ I'm glad you reached out here.
I'm aware that self-loathing is hard and potentially ruining our self-esteem that push us into a deeper anxiety and depression
You're kindhearted that you are happy seeing your friends having skills and talents and you are honest with your feelings. I'm sure you have so much more good qualities in you ♡
What alternative thoughts you can use to create a room for improvement in terms of self-love, skills and talents?
♡ Chérie
____________Kindly note, this is not an advice in anyway ♡
Thank you! As for alternative thought I know I can't use all or nothing thinking or judgmental thoughts. And I should try and catch myself when doing that and try to use self compassion. It's hard however when I can't see the progress.
Hey there! I'm so sorry you're struggling with this - it sounds so difficult! It can be easy to push away our friends when we're feeling depressed, I know I've definitely dealt with the same thing. It sounds like your coping skills aren't working as well as they used to, this could be a great opportunity to try out some new ones. When we're depressed, we can become really hard on ourselves, but you're doing an amazing job by just reaching out!
