Darkness
It keeps getting stronger and stronger every day, every hour. The loneliness and the shame in feeling like this, accepting certain things about my life really without an ear but my own two. It's painful to talk about and hurts more faking happiness and being around others, others who may not understand. Others who have their own things to deal with. Lately chat requests on here don't get picked up, I isolate and can't express myself to others. I'm tired of this, tired of fighting.
I'm sorry you're lonely. You say other people have their own problems, but isn't it why we people are here, to share and to help each others. Maybe you might try to talk a little about your problems, and try if people around you might understand. You don't know beforehand.