Can it all stop?

Hi to anyone reading this. I don't even know if anyone will. Jeez it's taking me ages to type this.

I need to know that someone is feeling the way I do. I've got so little energy. I'm so tired. So fucking tired, I can't even explain, no one understands how tired I am.

I want everything to stop. The amount of I's in this is ridiculous, it's so selfish. So self absorbed. But hey that's me. Just some self absorbed mess who can't even be consistent. I couldn't remember that word. I can't remember things. I can't focus. I can't do anything, but of course I do things, but nothing right or well because I'm so goddamn tired.

I keep getting angry. And overwhelmed. And I just want to get away but I *can't* and I need to. I don't even want to live but I'd cause more trouble trying to die, so that's out. But I'm so blank. Why. Why am I blank and lifeless and tired or angry and upset and overwhelmed and needing it all to stop. Why can't I be normal.

But I'm stuck this way. That's my reality. For the rest of my life I will be this broken mess, not really loved. Not really wanted. Just useless.

God and this whole post is just attention seeking isn't it. But of course I'm going to post it because I'm a horrible person. And even that sounds attention seeking.

Just. Please. Please someone say I'm not alone in this. Please.