Boring life

Hi. I just want to let out some thoughts here since I don't really have anyone to talk to about this.... I'm feeling weird the last months... Or better said sad and lonely. Disappointed of the way my life is at the moment. I feel even bad complaining because I have a place to sleep, food and a job. But I feel empty and with no real purpose in life. Everything feels at the moment so meaningless. Every day I wake up and realize have to go to work, it hurts. I dislike greatly my job and don't feel competent enough for it. Everyone's advice is "just change your job". Like it was so easy. I'm a woman of color and after everything what's happening in the world right now I'm realizing how fucked up everything is. I feel like I had always to do the extra mile or prove myself everytime to get where I am now. A young immigrant woman of color won't be the first choice for a job position. When I don't have to work in the weekends, it doesn't get better. I don't have many friends. So I feel very lonely and prefer to stay at home rather than going out alone without any purpose... I tried dating apps and just reconfirmed that if I was prettier and "whiter" it would be easier to fit in this society. I'm tired.