Bad depressive episodes. How does it make you feel?
When anxiety and depression mix I feel this overwhelming need to just die. And I get so angry about being alive. I get so stressed about everything I have to do. And I crash. I shut down into this feeling of trapping rage and sadness into a cage. I push away everyone around me. And I just. Want. To die. But I can't. I can't and it's killing me inside. Because I know I have things that need to be done and people to support. But I can't figure out what it is that makes people want to live. What makes people truly want to stay alive in this crappy world?
@ChasingStorms
I get you :( It is so hard to keep going even though you feel like it is not worth it. When I think about ending my life I can't do it because of the people that love me. But life is so hard and I'm not sure if I can keep fighting..
But. I think we owe it to ourselves to keep fighting even if we feel like we can't anymore. Or to give up for a little while and just be super depressed and then maybe start fighting again. I don't know. It could get better. I'm still holding out hope.
All the best to you *hugs*
