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Nimue1993
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PathStep 478 Compassion hearts74 Forum posts156 Forum upvotes273 Current upvotes273 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2018 Member sinceOctober 23, 2017
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books - coffee - cats - kickboxing - food - ASD - <3
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Great TED talk
Depression Support / by Nimue1993
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January 13th, 2018
...See more I found this great talk about how happiness is not the main thing we should be striving for, but meaning. It really inspired me to focus on meaningful living, so I wanted to share this with you all. This is the link to the talk: ted.com/talks/emily_esfahani_smith_there_s_more_to_life_than_being_happy?referrer=playlist-motivation_for_the_new_year_and_every_day_really#t-726412 [https://www.ted.com/talks/emily_esfahani_smith_there_s_more_to_life_than_being_happy?referrer=playlist-motivation_for_the_new_year_and_every_day_really#t-726412]
Don't know what to do anymore
Depression Support / by Nimue1993
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July 19th, 2018
...See more I've had dysthymia since I was 15 years old (officially diagnosed when I was 19, but looking back, it started when I was 15). I also have autism spectrum disorder (which the dysthymia is probably related to). I've been in therapy and had coaching on and off since my diagnoses, but I still struggle so much in life and it doesn't seem to get better. I mean, I've learned a lot and understand myself much better now, but I still have as many mood swings and times of feeling down as I had a years ago and I'm 24 years old now. I know mental illness doesn't get fixed overnight, but I just don't seem to make much progress. One of the main reasons (according to me and my last therapist) is that I cannot activate/motivate myself to do things. It is so hard for me to just start doing something, especially if it is something new. This is the main reason that I had to stop therapy and the main reason for struggling in college. I'm still in college, but I don't think I'm going to make it if I cannot change myself. I just don't know how to do it or what could possibly help me. I just feel like a lost cause. It's not that I'm a total screw-up or anything, I mean, I have a girlfriend, I have some friends, I have pretty good contact with my family, I have my own place which I can keep clean and neat, etc. I don't know, it all just doesn't make sense anymore and every day is a struggle and I just don't want to struggle anymore but I don't know how it could every get better.
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