Another life
To be honest I feel like this topic could be in a few forums but I feel like the depression one is the closest to the feeling.
Do you ever look at strangers or friends or family and think "Man look at how great their life is!" and get lost in the idea of having a new life? I feel like I do that more and more lately. I feel guilty for doing it though.
On the surface, I have a life a lot of people would want. I live in a house with my boyfriend, I have a job, and a business. That's why I feel so guilty when I think about how quickly I would trade it for a different life. The life I have, as great as it sounds for some, is not the life I want. It's a very strange feeling to cope with.
If I had a sort of "reset to perfect" scenario, I'd be with a different guy and probably leave the country to see the rest of the world. Maybe settle down near a coastal city and work on my art. Eventually having kids would be nice, but with the right details, I could be content childless. But I try not to think too hard about it, because it really fuels my anxiety and self deprecating nature.
It's just so weird, feeling like I'm caged in this life I hate when others would easily trade their lives for mine. It feels wrong, but it would feel so right to get away sometimes. I don't know if it would actually be better, but I wish I could try it and find out.
@DariaandJane It sounds like what you are thinking of is actually pretty common. It seems like the way we all dream of going on vacation to a sunny place or some faraway land. But for you, it seems like you want change like a different situation or scenario than the one you are currently in. Perhaps these questions can help you explore your thoughts more.
What do you want that you see in others, but you don't have right now in your life? It sounds like freedom to do what you want like working on your art.
If you have that life you are dreaming of, would you miss any of the things you have now?
Is there anyway you can take a break and try out that for a short period of time?
How do you feel about the life you dream of if you lived it? Is there anything in your life right now that can make you feel that way?
I wish you the best in finding out what you need and want for your life. Good luck on your journey.
