Am I depressed?

So, I didn't know what exactly depression was because nobody ​​​​​​ here cares about mental health. I just kind of overheard my mum talking to a relative of mine and she said that, a cousin of mine was depressed. She said that she observed that he wasn't speaking a day when he came to our home. So, my first idea of depression was that a person doesn't freely interact with humans around them.

May 2018 was when I first met depresion and anxiety. I don't know if that's true because I've never been diagnosed. Just a bit of what happened:

I did messed up a bully​​'s plan. So that bully and I liked the same girl. He didn't know about me. I was a stupid 12 year old kid. So I just wrote her a message anonymously where I said about the bully's plan to propose her.

A few days later:

The bully found out about the message and I got scared. I called up some other guy (I don't want to go in much detail) and his parent heard me saying that he found out the message. Unfortunately, I didn't know that it was a parent on the other side of the phone call.

Then followed "possible" depression and anxiety. NOBODY knew except for a friend but I was still scared.

I was so scared. I cried everyday. A lot. I didn't open up even about normal things to my family. My family thought I cried just because they didn't take me to an amusement park.

Luckily, we have a Parents Teachers meeting around August and it's compulsory because they declare our results in out examinations.

Nothing happened. I didn't get called up. It was alright. I was safe.

Well, another thing happened in 2018, and maybe that just made me a better person. A two bullies sat next to me and used bad words for each other. At the end of their conversation, they said that all those bad words were for me. Unfortunately, they also said many things to my family members like my mother and my cousin. Like they don't know them but they used slangs target at them. I felt so bad that day that my usage of bad words has been minimized at a great extent. I don't say bad words to people unless I'm frustrated and I don't target a person. I use them for all who are wrong and I don't use the words in public.

Why am I making this thread?

I think in this thread I'm gonna post about stuff I'm troubled about. I made a post on my Facebook and Instagram and my parents made a sarcastic comment on it. Well, my parents are adults and possibly don't use 7cups so they don't know anything of what I do here.

Thank you for reading!