Schooling, depression, etc

This is somewhat odd, expressing my feelings to completely strangers and what not. I understand all of you are supportive however, so I guess I don't mind all too much. I won't go into detail all that much, for the sake of time.

My life drastically changed about 10 months ago due to a breakup, it wasn't the ordinary as well, it was the bed ridden, complete heartbroken kind of breakup. The breakup that nothing seems to solve, I'm speaking of the complete lack of motivation to do anything of the simplest tasks, and not at all the difficult ones. Living conditions were also unpredictable and not all that well, I was constantly around drugs and partying, with no supervision. I couldn't escape it because I was living in the house it was occurring in. Moving on, I met a wonderful human being, who's life matters more to me than my own, and I only wish to see her filled with joy, for she deserves every ounce of it. No it isn't a new girlfriend, simply a friend, whom I cherish. I moved out of that house, and moved again not too long after, which I'm taking very hard, I'm in a completely new environment, tis nothing like home. School is very difficult and only causes me more depression, I dread it every day, it makes me desire death more than I already do. I would speak to someone on the matter, but I just can't. I wish I could explain more, in short you only need to know that I desire my friend's presence, she is of the utmost love.