One word to describe how I feel today is....

Strangely, calm.

angery

Discouraged

Glad

Conflicted

bleh

5...

Hopeful

disappointed

I feel dissappointed in how this year has turned out.

I feel disappointed that I've lost some of the best friendships I've had in so long due to me sucking on communicating through text.

I feel disappointed that my family isn't perfect and it makes me feel that I will never know how to love someone or how to trust someone or how to let another person into my life.

I feel disappointed that the person I am the closest with (my father) has Covid 19 and there is nothing I can do about it.

I'm disappointed that it is my second year in university and I hate all my subjects.

I'm disappointed that I'm too scared too sleep at night because two people decided to break into my house and I had to lie in my bed pretending to be asleep while they were rummaging around my room.

I'm disappointed that after almost not eating and exercising everyday for 3 months and losing almost 15kg, due to lockdown I've gained it all back.

I'm disappointed that I have nobody to tell this to except a website on the internet.

So to sum it all up, I'm disappointed in myself.

Weepy