Just got out of the hospital
I'm 17, I've had severe depression for 2 years. I tried to kill myself for the first time a week ago, they released me 4 days ago and I'm staying with a friend and his mom now. They've hidden any pills or sharp objects or rope. He yelled at me at the hospital, but now he doesn't seem to know what to say so we just joke around like we always do like nothing happened. But I still want to kill myself. The only reasons I'm not is because I haven't found anything to do it with and I don't want my friend to find my body. I'm on anti-depressants, but they're not doing anything other than making me more tired and depressed.
Hey. I know how you feel. I've been struggling with depression for a few years now as well. My family has just lost my uncle a little over a year ago to suicide. It's not worth it sweetie. My family is still hurting so much from his absence. If you need anyone to talk to, just shoot me a message and I'll figure out how to read it. I'm new to this. But we can figure something out and text or something.
My family kicked me out years ago. The only people I know would be hurt are my friends, and they never knew anything was wrong until now but they're the only reason I didn't do it sooner. It's harder to talk about it to people in real life, because I've never portrayed myself as anything other than the one being funny all the time because it's easier that way
I know what you mean. I'm going through a hard time right now. I wake up every day wondering thinking, "what's my mom going to say or do to me today". I fear living. It's horrible. ):
sending love and support from this new member...
My heart goes out to JaypnotJayZ. Sounds like you have had so much to deal with at just 17. And depression is a very heavy one. You say you have been depressed for 2 years..that's quite a while.. I wonder if there could be other support for you like counselling. What you are experiencing and wanting to end it all is very much part of the depression. I have been to those depths and know how it is. We need to be supported at times like this. So please keep talking to us and others.We are here for you.