It started 4 years ago..
Hey, I have a problem: I used to have a lot of friends in elementary and part of middle school. I sort of drifted into this lonely state of mind where I can't connect with others at all. I'm in high school now and my former classmates are happy and making tons of new friends. I can't. I don't get any pleasure from being with others and I fake a lot of smiles and laughs. I come home and do homework and sleep as much as I can. I really hate getting up in the morning. School depresses me and I feel like I'm in a meaningless cycle. That sounds really lame, I know. But it is the truth. I'm scared.
Don't worry dude, I feel the exact same way. I see tons of other people around me at school having a good time and I just feel so out of place and not happy at all, like I don't fit in. I only have like 2 people I talk to hang out with everyday and I feel like I annoy them. You're not alone here dude, and I am here for you whenever you need it.