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@Annieliese, I am so sorry to hear that. The worse feeling in the world is to feel like nobody is there for you, when you need someone the most. I know that there are people out there who go through similar things as me, but it

I am here interstate babysitting two school age grandkids while their parents are away. Lots of things have gone wrong or are going wrong. I feel a failure as a grandma. My rental car had a skirmish with another car on the first day when I was driving the kids the half hour trip (they live in the country) to school. We are all physically ok but I now feel afraid driving here on highways and major roads as the accident occurred when after indicating left for ages and nobody would let me into the lane where I needed to take a slip road onto another highway, I saw a gap. But as I merged in, the car behind the gap sped up I expect to prevent me getting in front! There was a crash. I have to drive the kids to and from school each day and now I have to take them a very long way around as no way will I go through the trauma of that lane change in that 100 km zone! Plus I am so stressed each morning getting them ready to leave by 7.50 am. They dawdle and take so long to get ready (typical kids) but I feel so wiped out by the time we leave for school. And the kids constantly annoy each other and make each other wild! I really don

@Annieliese That's humans. Humans fix problems after it is too late - look at medicine and surgery. Way more popular than just living a healthy lifestyle in the first place. They wont listen to you when youre depressed but will quickly take your freedom away if you become suicidal, making life more painful and humiliating. Like the song goes, suicide is painless; but being around humans who think they know better is all too painful. Whats funny is just like with eating healthy and exercising, after youve been 'saved' from yourself nobody cares to listen; like a heart attack victim who wont quit eating way too much and exercising far too little. They will not let you speak your mind, which is unhealthy but will make you more likely to commit suicide later with their so called suicide prevention. You would kill a dog to end its misery but you wont take care of what you love or let it go? Instead people will call the police on you for wanting to end your misery. This is why I can never trust people - if they are not purposefully hurtful they are far too stupid, both logically and emotionally.

Hello
My name is Taylor and i'd like to hear about your thoughts and things on your mind if you need someone to talk to. 60 years is a long time to be dealing with chronic depression ~ i can't imagine how you must feel at this point, especially with having a family who does not want to lend a ear.
I see you've tried all kinds of treatment and therapy and nothing has seemed to work on the long term and even though I can't really provide a solution to that, i'm here for you to talk to. There are also lots of group support chatrooms on 7cups that you can access here and socialise with other members or talk about how you're feeling and you can also connect 1-1 with volunteer listeners!