I feel most alone when...
When my friends cant see my hurt. If they do, they chose to ignore it and dont want to talk about it. Ive tried reaching out but all my thoughts stop me and tell me no one cares or Im just being over dramatic and everything will be fine once I go to sleep and wake up the next day. I help others and listen very well, but sometimes its too much and I find myself to be the one broken and I dont have a single clue of what to do. I cant take my own advice and become a hypocrite when I do share advice to others. I havent found someone who makes me feel safe or someone I can fully trust. Someone who I can talk to at 2am and the vibe is just mellow.. I use to have that but all my insecurities built up from then and I believe they dont see me as the person they talked to a few years ago. I probably dont allow myself to create such relationships, but I want to and I dont know how without feeling judged or overwhelmed. And with social media promoting the idea of this is what a true best friend looks like.. with some stolen tumblr/insta post, it messes with my head if the friends I actually have are actual people that I can consider friends that will have my back through all the ups and downs. I just feel alone when Im at home, school, at social events, whenever Im surrounded by people who I dont have a connection with and where I would rather look down at my phone than thinking all the thoughts I have at that moment.
@DamarisPhoenix
I can see you're having a lot of doubts about yourself and your friends, and I just wanna say first of all thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with the community 
Loneliness is something we all experience, and it doesn't matter whether or not we're alone or with friends, and we feel lonely, that feeling creeps up to us even if we're surrounded by people. To me, it feels like no one else cares or understands me even thou I have people around me, or I just don't feel connected to anyone else. And I agree that with social media, with people posting photos and tags constantly, it feels as if we're "abnomal" if we're not doing those things.
But keep in mind, loneliness is universal and I believe that everyone experiences them, it's just that people often times do not share them. Take social media for example, people often times only show their positive sides, so even if someone is active on social media, it doesn't neccessarily mean they are really happy 24/7, it's just what they are projecting and how they are protraying themselves, so I think it helps if we try to approach this logically, and also, always remember to focus on yourself first, love being with ourselves, before being with others, I truly believe this helps!
When I'm by myself, and find it very difficult to socialize with other people. 😔