High functioning depression

Something I learned that I have

I'm working, busy, active and it seems like there's nothing wrong. But deep down I suffer from adohenia, loss of interest in things I onced liked. I constantly battle with self harming feelings and thoughts of suicide. I have an addiction with porn and masturb. I will criticise myself if I don't measure up and I fear rejection if people knew my inner struggles. I have ADHD. I have a child with Aspergers.

Were going to relocate and everything and everyone I once held on to, I'm leaving behind. I know adventure lies before me, but I'm facing all my fears.

I know Jesus is with me and I'm never alone. But with people I am. Visiting is hard, cuz I m not a natural talker. I avoid it mostly. When I do I leave my aspie at home cuz he has antisocial behavior.

If I look at all I'm dealing with I start getting the wrong thoughts.